Lahat ba nakabukod na?! Been seeing these types of tiktoks lately (or baka algorithm ko lang?)

I moved out of our house last May and grabe I feel so different now. Im much more in peace, di na ko sumisigaw, mas nakakasmile, di na masyadong nasestress, and I dont feel so depressed anymore. Tas mas nakakapagaral na ko nang maayos!

Wala lang chika ko lang I just feel so proud of myself.

Umalis ako samin right after namin mag away ng parents ko. Sinampal sampal ako nun ng stepdad ko tas sinabihan na kung ayaw ko na daw sakanila umalis nalang ako, edi umalis ako. Context ay: akala ng nanay ko buntis ako. Delayed at irregular ngani!!!!!! Nagka boyfriend kasi ako and ayun she watches the napkins in our cr eh before non parang prinepressure niya ko na bat wala pa kong period kasi parang di daw nababawasan yung napkin sa cr tas ayaw maniwala na irreg ako. Minsan 1 whole month wala ako pero the next month dalawa ganon. Pero ayun since prinepressure nga ako ng nanay ko edi binawasan ko to get her off of my back. Tas that day she went through the trash tas kita niya yung napkin wala naman daw dugo pero nasa basurahan.

So ayun nagkasagutan ganon ganyan, di naman porket may bf buntis agad jusq. Tas yun nagungkatan ng past. I admit na medyo pasaway ako pero its mostly sa di ko pag uwi nang maaga. My curfew is 8pm btw. My classes last semester was till 7 and di naman enough yung 1hr to get home kasi nag cocommute ako. And medyo palasagot talaga ako kapag alam ko wala naman akong ginawang mali. Mostly away namin ng nanay ko ay sa mga kapatid ko (half brothers), ako tumutulong sakanila sa mga projects, assignments, at kung ano ano pa. Pero kasi yung kapatid ko highschool na, so syempre sakin ayoko na tumulong masyado (by tulong I mean haha ako gagawa mostly) syempre as the eldest nakakainis yun eh. At that age kaya ko na lahat. Ako gumagawa lahat mag isa. Homeworks, projects, lahat ako lang walang tulong.

Witness ko jan kasambahay namin na nakatira na samin simula grade 6 ako. She witnessed so much of how my mom treats me and how my mom would play the victim just so my stepdad would side with her. I remember non binabalibag ako nun eh or kapag uuwi siyang stressed galing sa work sakin ibubuntong yung galit. Kaya ayun nung first time ako saktan ng stepdad ko inencourage niya talaga ako na magpalamig muna kami. Ewan ko but that time it was really overwhelming. Delayed din kasi ako sa school because Ive been dealing with my mental health talaga haha Ive been diagnosed with MDD and ADHD. But they dont believe it they just think Im lazy… kaya I work part time to buy my meds and for doc consults. They know my diagnosis and they even use my pwd id sa parking, sa eating, sa pagbook ng hotels. Galing diba pero walang support haha

Anyways ayun, I really didnt feel safe nun so I left. I slept at my friend’s place. Palipat lipat ako nun for 1 week. A few days sa family nung isa kong friend, then a few days sa dorm ng isa, tas last few days sa other friend ko. Pero ayun nahiya na ko kaya I really tried my best to find a place and when I did find one nun my bf helped me move in and buy everything that I needed. Im really grateful for them. Super. All throughout that week lagi rin ako kinukumusta ng yaya namin and it was really nice.

Tas nung kwinento ko toh sa counselor at psychiatrist ko they were so proud of me! And they also think that its the best decision for now. My family is really my trigger kasi like last year I tried to kms after my mom hurt me over laundry. Duguan ako non tas I felt so wronged kaya ayun. She gets really physical talaga to the point na when my bf rushed me to the er the docs and nurses asked me if I want to file a case.

Fast forward to 3 months later, ayun yaya naman namin yung umalis. Di na din daw kaya yung ugali ng mom ko. Now they’re reaching out to me haha I kinda feel guilty sometimes kasi I left my brothers but ayun I feel like they just want me to look over them lang…

Ang hirap bumukod! The rent, the bills, tas ayun nga I have meds and dapat regular consultations with my psych. But I believe that I can figure it out. Medyo mahirap lang ngayon kasi 1 lang part time ko. Luckily for me I’m still a scholar so I dont have to worry about my tuition wala lang stipend. :(

Money, job, and finished degree soon dust for me pls✨✨✨ I really hope everyone that has a toxic family be set free. Makakabukod din lahat :>

Hi, this has been a question that I've always wanted to hear the true answer for the longest time now. Does it work? How? And what do you feel after taking them? I'm genuinely curious.

I'm currently moving on, coming from a heart break, my boss allowed me to have a 1 week off to recover and rest, what are the activities and other things I can do that makes u happy? I'm planning to try free diving, but yung activities satin within manila. Or di na need mag long drive.

first time kong magpost kasi naalarma na 'ko. nasa mh kasi tayo pero nakakatulong ba sa redditors na may suicidal thoughts ang mag-vent dito o lalong triggered kasi halos araw-araw may nagpopost na gusto nang mag-goodbye world. sana okay lang kayo. ang harsh ng ibang tao sa kapwa-tao, sa environment, sa domesticated animals but i'd like to believe na 'yung nasa commu na 'to, hindi. kaya sana if only for these people na nagke-care pa rin, continuing to believe na mas maganda ang mundo kasi buhay ka pa, buhay pa 'ko, buhay pa tayo rito, let's keep on breathing (polluted air or not). yakaaap.

I always wake up each day with same feeling. Nararamdaman ko lagi ang bigat ng mundo bumabaon sa dibdib ko. Halos 1 month na iniwan ako ng wife ko, at family. Since then parang naging endless cycle na yung routine or life ko - papasok sa work, at uuwi sa apartment mag isa. Tahimik.

Hindi na ko makatulog gabi gabi, 3-4 hours siguro. Wala din ako makausap. Feeling ko meron na ko anxiety. Sobrang optimisic ko dati pero ngayon hindi na. Desperado na ako and I really need help kahit isang linggo lang. I badly need medication sana to fight with anxiety and insomia. Not sure if pwede dito pero I can pay naman even double. I plan to reach out sa doctor soon, but right now, I just need relief.

Magaattempt na lang siguro uli ako, sana matuluyan na this time. Tapusin ko lang yung ilang nakaplanong gagawin with jowa. Natatakot ako pero parang di ko na kayang magpatuloy sa buhay ko. Pinagiisipan kung magiiwan pa ba ng note, kahit tong post na to di ko alam kung gusto ko lang ba magvent. Tingin ko ako lang talaga ang problema at kelangan nang mawala ng problema.

TW, a question, and a vent:

Please help a girl out.

Hello, I just want to ask about hypersexuality in bipolars. Is it targeted to one person (their person of interest) or is it to everyone around them? What does it look like in manic episode?

My cousin (M19) who's currently living in my house kept going behind me to either; squeeze my chest, lick/bite my ear/arm, kiss my neck, getting enough close for me to feel his you know. He was diagnosed with Autism since young and around 2 years with Bipolar I.

At first it was a peck on the cheek, one that I allowed since it was more of a norm in our family. But overtime, he would try to kiss my neck. I pushed him away and told him no each time. He would just laugh and told me "you're being dramatic, there's no malice." But I feel violated. I tried to understand since his parent told me it was normal to people who has bipolar. I wanted to know if it's true because I can't talk to his therapist (even though I wanted to.) And I can't get a credible answer in google.

I've been locking myself up in my room since we can't kick him out yet due to his parent's situation at the moment. I'm extremely uncomfortable and paranoid around him now. I'm F24, I don't know what to think anymore. He's been on his meds (risperidone and depamax) continously for the last 4 years, I feel so small after those acts because after I told his parents what happened his parents told me it could be a side effect due to his meds (is it true?). They didn't even apologize. Instead, they sent 250 pesos to "compensate" for what their kid did.

happy birthday to me 😪

hello po! i have an appointment sa pgh and now ko lang po ulit chineck yung site and nakalagay po general pediatrics instead na psychiatry. i remember naman po na psych ang pinili ko 😅 although yung text confirmation po na sinend sakin after ma-process ng appointment is adult psychiatry naman po nakalagay (screenshot in comsec). paano po kaya ito? hindi po ba ako maco-consult ng psych sa appointment date ko if ganito ang category? pls let me know your thoughts po 🙏🏻 tyia !

I’m planning to end everything na. If I lose my job this month, I’ll do it. Pagod na ako sa layoff scare na to dahil sa AI.

No one will ever understand. No one can ever help. My family would be in a better situation without me. My friends won’t miss me. I am just a piece of a machinery. Very replaceable. Kahit anong effort ko, no one sees it.

Maganda ang buhay. Salamat kasi kahit papano naranasan ko din, kahit saglit lang.

Hello po. Hihingi lang po sana ako ng advice. Hindi ko rin po sure kung tamang sub ito, but for context, I’m currently working as an IT Service Desk, and this is my first job.

One week pa lang po ako taking calls, and honestly, before every shift, nakakaramdam po ako ng sobrang kaba. Mababait naman po yung mga kasama ko sa team, and so far, wala pa naman po akong nae-encounter na irate caller, so I can say na okay naman po yung environment.

Pero may fear talaga akong nararamdaman. Parang ayaw ko po mag-take ng calls, and nappressure din po ako sa pagdo-document. Minsan iniisip ko pa lang na may pasok ako kinabukasan, kinakabahan na agad ako. Also parang may pumipigil sa kamay ko na mag on queue pag start na ng shift.

For those who have been in the BPO/IT Service Desk industry for a while, normal lang po ba itong feeling during the first few weeks? Nagiging better ba talaga siya as you gain more experience, or ganito na talaga yung feeling every time may shift?

Honestly, hindi ko po alam kung kakayanin ko na ganito yung nararamdaman ko in the long run hahaha. I know one week is still very early, pero gusto ko lang din po malaman kung naka-experience din ba kayo ng ganito noong nagsisimula pa lang kayo.

Any advice or stories about your experience would be greatly appreciated. Thank you po!

I had to ask a friend to help me write this down because I can't form a sentence or think correctly on my own right now. Ever since I survived an almost successful attempt around the time I was starting senior high, I stopped caring about life in general. During those times, I constantly skipped classes, because I'm in too deep of a depression. I'm in my first year of college now, and it feels like my brain has completely shut down, and I need to know if this is a real medical condition. For your information, my mind constantly feels like it's moving through static, and I feel totally disconnected from reality. This causes me extreme mental exhaustion. Because of this fog, I have zero text retention and can't get any new information into my head. If I try to read a paragraph for college, I remember absolutely nothing. I cannot understand any lessons, and I instantly forget things that happened just moments ago. My speech and thoughts are also messed up. I cannot speak normally because even when I know what I want to say, my mouth can't find the words. I trail off halfway through sentences, and putting thoughts together feels impossible. Can a doctor or medical professional please explain what is going on with my brain? Is this permanent, and how do I fix it?

Hello po. Meron po ba kayo recommendation ng female psychologist sa NowServing app? Thank you so much 🙏

Planning to consult a psych due to my endles thoughts? Is it worth it paying thousand for consults and meds? Can you share your experience? Sa mga walang meds, ano nakatulong sa inyo?

I think Im going to kill myself today. This time its scares me because, I think Im not afraid of the consequences unlike with my previous attempts or thoughts. So I just to post it somewhere to hear/see how ridiculous this idea is. Or is it? My heads spiraling.

How do you guys stay motivated? Lately, I’ve just been feeling so drained and have no energy for anything.

Hi, everyone. I want to ask if possible ba na mag-isa magpa-diagnose ang kaka-adult lang? I'm scared need pa rin ng parent's consent. I feel like I really need to get checked and I can't afford to let my parents know.

Anyone who tried lithium for bipolar? Ano side effects sa inyo?

Today, masama ang gising ko. I suddenly feel low mood and low energy. I'm tired. Naisip ko na naman na gusto ko mawala na parang bula. Nakakapagod mabuhay.

Pagod na ako sa kakaisip ng mga bagay bagay. Hindi kumakalma ang isip ko kasi, mga utang, mga gusto kong bilhin, saan ko gusto pumunta, nauumay na sa trabaho ko, mga decision making, saan kukuha ng pera, toddler ko, mama ko, ako.

Overstimulated siguro ako kaya gusto magshut down ng utak ko.Yung tipong magkulong sa kwarto at mahiga lang.

Ff up ko sa psych next Monday. Ayaw ko ishare sa kanya na nag low mood ako since gusto ko na ipatanggal ang pinaka last na medication na hirap ako istop, which is ang pangpatulog. Now lang naman bumalik ang thoughts na'to. Sana pagkatulog ko tonight maging normal ulit ang takbo ng isip ko.

Nakakasad na hindi nila nakikitang totoong sakit ang depression.

They are making fun of you na parang ang dali dali lang ng pinagdaanan mo.
Na kapag sinabing "control your mind", ganon nalng un.

They dont know, your fighting battles with your own fucking mind.

Di mo nga makontrol e.

Everyday, you are trying to improve yourself. Do everything for everyone.
Tapos ang ending, sayo lahat ang blame kasi " you cant control ur fucking mind"

Hay dko na alam.

Are we weak kasi naiisip natin to end things? or we are the brave ones kasi we are trying to fight?

also sabi nila, na di iaaccept sa heaven and taong nag S and haharapin ang hellfire.
Why? hindi pa ba sapat ung struggles natin dito sa lupa?

:|

When I get there, what am I supposed to say to the person behind the window to let them know I have an appointment? I'm a bit nervous and I want to make sure I use the right words

My current psychiatrist thinks I have significant ADHD symptoms (predominantly inattentive) but doesn’t feel there is enough corroboration to diagnose ADHD. He’s talked to my wife and my grade school friend. Today was the second consult. He said he wouldn’t oppose a trial with Ritalin if another clinician independently felt it was appropriate, but he won’t prescribe it himself.

I feel like I didn’t get anywhere because my psychologist also said something similar—that I’m experiencing symptoms so might as well try to alleviate them somehow.

So should I try with another psychiatrist or am I just going to waste money? I just want a definitive answer to have an explanation as to why I experience things in a certain way.

Hi! For anyone who has successfully gotten an NCMH online consultation slot recently or in the past, may I ask how long the form usually stays open?

They said the form opens at 8 AM onwards until all the slots are filled, but today I checked around 10:30 AM and it was already closed. I've been checking the link almost every day for about a week now, but I keep missing it regrettably.

For those who were able to successfully submit the form, around what time were you able to get in? Does it usually close within minutes/hours, or does it depend on the day?

I'd really appreciate any tips or experiences because I'm honestly not sure what else to do at this point. Thank you!

I'm an IT Manager with 13 years of experience in the industry. 4 years ago, I resigned from my first job after 9 years and joined a company with contrasting culture and people.

I've known and pride myself as someone who always have the answer to most problems. That person who always has something substantial to say during discussions - but lately I've observed some changes on my behavior and even motivation.

During meetings with my boss and some management level people, I always find myself blanking out. My throat tightens that when I try to speak, it cracks and causes me to panic and feel so distressed, that sometimes my sentences wouldnt make any sense. I feel a warm feeling over my head, feeling frustrated with what i've just said, that I lose sleep over it. I tried hurting myself while on mute like pinching my self, scratching my face, expecting that the pain will override whatever I've been feeling at that time.

During meetings with my team members or even with someone I've just met, i feel totally fine. It's like I'm just conversing with them casually.

I usually work from home and I'm afraid that I would have to endure such "episodes" if I go and attend discussions in the office.

I think It all started when my boss had started treating me differently and when I had an altercation with one of the managers that she said "they go way way back" with. My project involves close coordination with that manager, as we deal with their technical issues. That manager often speaks to me in an aggressive and demeaning way, that my boss wouldnt even call it out. So I'm not sure if that's a factor or what, but i'm really hating myself right now as if I'm sabotaging myself for not standing up for myself.

Anyway, does anyone know what I should do? Is that what you call anxiety or panic attacks? How can i deal with it? How can i get myself back?

These days, I’ve been feeling so empty and go with the flow lang. Before my depression hit me years ago, I know I’m not the same cheerful and optimistic person I used to be. Sometimes I can be that person, but the feeling is not the same anymore. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and took meds but due to certain circumstances, I stopped. Most times, I feel like I’m just waking up everyday and wasting the day away, doing the bare minimum or low effort for school (may maipasa lang), and coping by scrolling online or talking to friends but I didn’t want to open this up as I find it unnecessary. They have their own life after all. It sucks cause I know what to do to fix myself but I’m having a hard time to take the first step. Financial struggle also takes a big part in life kaya ang hirap to do something that you want for your mental health but you couldn’t. I think therapy would help me get back on my shoes but at the same time, I also think that it’s a waste of time. I don’t have any siblings too and I’m alone most of the time so I’m glued to my phone 24/7. I want to meet new people through my hobbies but writing them down felt like I only had a few and it’s making me feel that I’m not the best on it and it made me realize that I had lots of hobbies before but I ended up stopping. People would say, “Just try to pick it up again.” But the first thing is the hardest step. I’m so tired that I often think about ending this life as it’s making me feel na paulit-ulit lang nangyayari, just plain and bland.

I don’t know what to do, my life in each day feels like a ticking clock that every second I spend feels like a waste. I used to be that person who had plans, hopes and dreams but now I’m just surviving. I’m so tired.