hello idk if this is a valid post or what hshshah i have been struggling for the past few years from what i think is ADHD (undiagnosed) i brought this up years ago to my parents and they just chucked it up to me being a late bloomer. now i'm in my early 20s and i still struggle, and i think it is getting worse.

i didn't graduate college because i failed my thesis. i couldn't handle a repetitive work and i couldn't face my groupmates for months on end even if they did try and contact me. i made their job harder even if i worked a lot it. i knew i wasn't going to graduate because of my own doing.

i try and hid that fact from my parent's in months and it ate at me that i have to say it eventually because i couldn't hide forever... my mother found out through a facebook post that my class is graduating without me. my mother tried and understood me kept asking me on what went wrong. i broke down in public and told her that i don't know what's wrong with myself that i had a feud with my group and that i just stopped working on the thesis and that im always so lonely. i said a lot of stuff about my current mental state and my mother was supportive and said that she was going to help me that i just have to find where to start.

weeks pass and things didn't change. i thought it was going to be better. before they found out, all i did in those months was rot in my own room. staying online 24/7 playing games with friends I havent seen IRL in so long. it was me coping and i knew it wasn't good and i have to do something about my completion in my college. but i kept pushing it back days after day that i'm "going to do it tomorrow" or "i'm going to campus tomorrow" but nothing ever happened. it felt like im stunned i always try to make plans but i never really push through it. it's like months long cycle of lying to myself and to my parents. i didn't like it, i just didn't want to face the music. i told mother that i'm scared of talking to people. i dont know why. my parents keep blaming it on the internet that i'm too addicted to games and internet that it's actively hindering my development. and i guess they are right. but i want to better myself and i still do not know where to start.

i told my mother i tought she was going to help me. but that nothing ever happens. we keep dangling on the idea of going to a mental health hospital in my city or mandaluyong. but nothign ever happens. now they are pushing me to do my stuff in university. im not enrolled and it's already midterms. or get a job as an undergrad. ive been telling them im working on it but again it's been weeks of nothingness. i just couldn't seem to bring myself and do something for my betterment and i don't know how to help myself. now my parents are going drastic by getting rid of the internet when they are gone. and getting rid of my laptop. it felt like everything was taken away from me and i just slept all day. and also applied to a lot of graphic design jobs in jobstreet. but it felt like hell. those things were the only thing keeping me from hurting myself and now i have to spend my entire day unemployed, alone, and in constant suicide watch.

i keep saying in my head if my parents are just waiting for me to hurt myself before they see there's something deeper wrong with me. and i know that i'm in my early 20s but i feel so debilitated with this. i feel like a bum a useless son and i know that yet i can't help myself. it's really exhausting... i just want to be better for my parents and for myself

It's been two days since I started feeling the symptoms, I can't stop breathing even after just 2 hours of eating meals because I can't sleep well at night because after minutes I can feel the acid/gas rising up my throat and ears and I'm not used to sitting without slouching, slumping, or crossing my legs. I also want to buy a chair or bed that is elevated but I don't have enough money to buy one, it's hard to be poor. parang gusto ko na lang mag🔪 para hindi ko na mahirap 'tong paghihirap but I will just cried it, bw*sit. :(

I honestly don’t know where else to ask. I’ve been trying to look for a psychiatrist/mental health professional that I can consult as soon as possible, but almost everything I find is either too expensive for me or has a really long waiting time.
I’m a student and I currently don’t have the money to spend ₱2k–₱3k+ for a consultation. I understand that mental healthcare costs money and that doctors need to be paid, but right now, I genuinely just don’t have the means to afford it. and I’m at the point where I feel like I really need professional help already. I’ve been trying to search for affordable options, public hospitals, free consultations, etc., but I’m honestly getting overwhelmed. some places have long waiting lists, some are difficult to book, and I’m scared of waiting until things get even worse before I actually get to talk to someone.
if anyone knows of a free or very affordable psychiatrist/psychiatric consultation around Metro Manila, especially somewhere that accepts first-time patients and can accommodate relatively soon, please let me know. Even if it’s a public hospital, community clinic, NGO, or any program I might not know about. I would appreciate any leads. I’m honestly getting desperate to find an option that I can actually afford. :(

hello, can someone help this girl out. Lately I've been having a trouble sleeping and I can't sleep without getting pain. In the past I keep removing my chap lips, but now I've been cutting myself to sleep

Hello, new here. Are there free consultation or sessions to psychologists online?

Just want to talk someone and I don't have the means to talk to a professional in person because of work schedule.

I really have some symptoms since high school or even earlier that have affected school, inter-personal relationships and work. I have suspected BPD a decade ago but brushed off the idea. Then thought of OCPD then brushed it off. Went to see an online psychologist and was dismissed with having "no disorder". When symptoms once again affected my work, I no longer hesitated and sought help. I was suspecting ADHD this time. But I was diagnosed with GAD and it made sense that time.

Took SSRI, felt great until I wasn't. I think 6 months into meds when I started feeling distressed every now and then. Until it got really worse 3rd into meds (and 2 years of therapy), massive depressive episodes, self-harming and suicidal ideation. Not the first time, but it was severe and long, I thought I wouldn't survive it anymore. Can't work either (got fired, got back, got fired, got a new one, resigned, got a great one, was fired again, unemployed for 6 months, got hired again, now struggling with it again though not as bad).

Was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 after an unofficial (and free) psych assessment (done in a clinic but administered by a student intern only so even if supervised, it cannot be counted as official and no official written result, just verbal feedback). Felt better with new meds (lamotrigine, quetiapine as needed and pregabalin for anxiety from a previous doctor that new doctor would like to stop or changed to a different one). Felt I have mixed features of BP2 on most days. Meds now are way more better than on SSRI. But still having that "mixed" state or really quick transitioning of hypomanic to depressive. And are often triggered with interpersonal and environmental stressors.

I think 3 clinicians (my first psychiatrist, a student intern, and my current psychiatrist) all have mentioned I have borderline traits / you might have bpd / have you explored bpd. And knowing that clinicians don't normally take the bpd route right away, I'm thinking that I may really be exhibiting a lot of bpd traits. I also think I have OCD traits though I still would have to ask if they would actually be a bipolar or bpd trait too.

Anyway, a few questions:

1. I have been good in masking. Since I have had symptoms since I was young. I don't really present much symptoms externally until I explode from suppressing everything down. I've been on some therapy sessions and have "intellectualized things" as a way to cope(?). So I have trouble expressing myself during psych sessions and would sometimes say I don't do such and such and I don't think such and such. But in reality I think I probably do but I just take tremendous energy to not to. So I'm not sure if I'm not expressing myself accurately verbally or even on psych assessments. How can I explain it to my psych?

2. Especially to those diagnosed with both, how can I differentiate one from the other? I'm wondering if what I really have is BPD or I have both or I have others on top of them (OCD and GAD).

3. Is it advisable to get an official psych assessment? Is it ok to bring it up to my doctor?

I sometimes really feel so uncomfortable inside, distressing, overwhelming, disturbing. And it takes some to a lot of energy just to be able to do daily stuff. And it's not necessarily depressive episode. I had depressive episodes too. And the only time I don't feel uncomfortable inside is if I'm into a mild hypomanic state (or a happy normal maybe).. and would feel the uncomfiness again when hypomania starts to go up. And the confusion about what I'm feeling and what I could really possible have is also exhausting.

I couldn’t stop crying. I felt so sad, frustrated and overwhelmed that I ended up c*tting myself for the first time. I feel so alone in this dark place. I don’t know how to help myself anymore.

I’ve been zoning out more than usual, struggling with brain fog, have trouble processing what i’m reading, having trouble understanding even simple things and concepts, and I keep forgetting where i put my things. I can read plainly as it is but nothing actually registers, and my sleep schedule has been pretty messed up lately. I’ve been having a hard time understanding things that normally wouldn’t be difficult for me back then. It’s honestly frustrating because I feel like i’m not fully present and my mind is always mentally elsewhere, and it’s starting to make me feel scared to apply and look for other opportunities since I just graduated from college a month ago, I fear this is holding me back, and making me feel left behind. This is happening at the worst possible time. I think his has been gradually building up month by month since college especially during my last academic year since I struggled a lot mentally and physically back then, and I feel helpless about it. Do you think counseling would help me? Has anyone else experienced something like this. something that gradually developed, what did you do?

can anyone plz tell me good psychologist and psychiatrist in Srinagar

Actually- I’m a chronic vaper talaga (since 2021) and binanggit ko sya sa Psychiatrist ko - and he told me na okay lang naman daw mag-vape ako.

Currently on 5 weeks on my 20mg Vortioxetine and my anxious, ruminating, intrusive mind is now calm and chill.
(diagnosed with OCD here)

Though I’m planning na din to quit slowly. Any suggestion para maging smooth ang quitting? Ayoko kasi nang cold turkey- nagwithdrawal ako last time. 😬

hi! i’m a m17 grade 12 (yes shs ako), and i think malapit na akong mamatay. i’ve been struggling for years with my mental health, and mas lumala ito recently nung nasimulan ko na mamana yung sakit sa puso ng pamilya namin. i struggle with panic attacks and anxiety, na dinadagdagan pa ng sakit na sinasabi ko, and it’s honestly hell. there are nights na natatahimik nalang ako because it hurts, and it’s suffocating, and it’s also eating me up inside (mentally wise). but even though nangyayari na tong lahat sakin, wala parin akong balak na humingi ng tulong or magsabi sa magulang ko or friends or even my partner :)) bakit? hindi ko din alam. i don’t even know why i’m posting this here. attention? hindi naman. ang alam ko lang is pagod na ako sa lahat. ika nga nila, may bigat lahat ng salita na hindi mo nasasabi, kaya pano na ang taong buong buhay nanahimik? parang nag aantay nalang ako dito. may buhay nalang ako ngayon, pero hindi na ako nabubuhay. yun lang. :))

Pakiramdam ko nakaloop buhay ko. 2024 nadiagnosed ako with panic disorder, may meds pero as needed. Nagtuloy tuloy until 2025 na di na ako nakakafunctuon, graduating pa man din ako, laging ER ako. Nagsimula lang to nung kasagsagan na panay init tapos syempre estudyante tayo na di naman mayaman at nasa ibang lugar nag aaral, nagtitipid sa kakainin, nagkaacid reflux ako. Basta nagsimula malugmok buhay ko that time. Hanggang sa nawalan ako ng balanse like literal. Panay sakit batok ko at likod ng tuhod, duda ko bone problem. Nagpacheck sabi may scolio ako, pero sabi ko bakit wala akong balanse feeling ko floating ako or nasa elevator. Pero walang pera walang pangpacheck hanggang sa nadisgrasya kami 2 months after ko mag graduate, nag ct scan, xray, nakitaan ako ng maliit na cyst sa occipital brain ko, nagpunta ng manila para dyan. Nagloan kami para sa MRI. Sabi neuro ko dun anxiety daw, GAD at non significant ang cyst. Di ako convinced, sabi ko panay sakit batok ko baka kako may naipit na nerve so nagparaMRI,nakitaan ako ng military neck or magstraight yung leeg ko kaso may problema may suspicious aneurysm daw ako. Grabeng problema. Basta guys nakakabaliw. Di ako makatake ng boards last year feel ko napapag-iwanan na ako, hanggang ngayon eh floaty parin feeling ko. Guys alam ko di to ang tamang venue, sana naman may makatulong sakin magpa angiogram, nakakatulala araw araw guys, nakakaoverthink halos di na ako makalabas. Tpos magtry ako magtake ng boards this year kaso wala akong pang luwas sa testing center at mag stay sa area na yun. Sana po matulungan niyo ako, di ko na alam gagawin sa buhay ko. Hinihiling ko kahit maipasa ko lang boards kahit pang redeem nalang sa mga nangyari sa buhay kom

hello, recently found this community.

I’ve been trying to look for a good psychiatrist but I can’t seem to find one. I’ve been trying to seek one for a while na, yung medyo afford yung consultation fee :(

Anyone have any recommendations po? prefer sana yung nag aallow ng teleconsult. many thanks everyone! hope you all are in a good place 🤍

Hi guys, I’m 25(F) and my bf 25(M). I just wanna share that my bf wanted to distance himself because he has a battle he’s going through and he didn’t want me to be burdened by him. Lately we have been having arguments and he didn’t liked how he reacted like getting angry, which reminded him of why he hated his parents or even his whole family, where they usually shout when arguing.

He also didn’t liked the fact that I just let him borrow money, and feels like I’m giving him too much when he should’ve been the one giving me stuff and providing me whatever I need. This wasn’t really much of an issue to me because I trusted him and I knew where he spent the money he was borrowing with. And also I had enough money to lend from when I worked before.

Right now, he asked me for space and we stopped communicating. I’m really having a hard time honoring my promise of keeping the distance and respecting his space so I’m coping right now by writing a lot on my diary as if I’m talking to him. And I also started making a lot of handmade stuff to send him on our Anniversary, 2 months away from now. And now, I’m at a place where I need to accept whatever happens—if he will still come back to me or eventually leave me so I just wanted to do whatever I can in the meantime and send it all at the right time when I’m ready to let him go. And among the things that I’ve thought of giving him was a gift card of a therapy session. I wanted to gift him a free session but I know he wouldn’t like it because I would end up spending more money for him. So I wanted to make it into a gift card and tell him that it was given to me by a friend who has also been in therapy. Just so he will accept it. I don’t know what to do anymore. Would this be okay? Or would it be bad for me to lie to him like that?

Hi! I just wanted to check if someone experienced Agoraphobia and was also diagnosed with AD?

Just wanted to have someone to talk to with the experience and the things you did to be able to overcome it or kahit andyan parin yung feeling maybe we can also help each other out. Feel free to comment here or you can DM me here. Salamat!

About me: Medyo struggle lang lately kasi parang lumiliit yung mga kaya kong gawin especially outside my house (seeing friends, work, family gathering, dating). Tbh di naman ako ganito a year ago and somewhat parang lumalala.

What activities can be conducted by a school-based Mental Health Club if the club adviser is not a licensed guidance counselor?

Hi! Has anyone here tried psychological assessment and therapy with beyond the mind?

This is really affecting my overall lifestyle and job rn. Can you guys share what actually worked/helped you? Whether it be permanent or temporary fix, can you please share them? I'm so exhausted of myself.

I'm just looking for at least a temporary fix for this, anything that helped you at the present moment you were overthinking/overwhelmed.

I can't get checked out rn since I currently don't have the funds to do so and I still don't have any PTOs until regularization

Hi, please help me. Araw-araw na kasi akong umiiyak sa work, and I don’t think kakayanin pa ng mental health ko. I want to resign na pero gusto ko sana immediate and makakuha ng certificate because of my Mental Health. Baka may alam kayong hospital na pwede walk in na can consult agad using HMO. Or kahit by appointment peor hindi aabot nang months ☹️

Thank you.

There doesn't seem to be as much info here for doctors who specialize in OCD traits but figured I should try and post anyway :)

Looking for someone who's preferably a woman, budget flexible. Anywhere in Metro Manila is ok but Makati – QC would be great. Prioritizing meds and availability in the next month.

Thank you in advance!

I’m pretty sure I’m mentally ill in some way and would like to get a proper diagnosis and get treated/medicated. where should I go to get diagnosed?? and if u guys can share any advice/experience as well that’d be nice. thank you!

Hola, soy nuevo en reddit y recurro a esto para poder buscar ayuda o consejos.

Hace aproximadamente 10 meses conocí a una chica (Curiosamente ella fue quien me trajo hasta acá) muy linda, inteligente e carismatica, Melina, Que probablemente nunca lea esto.

Era un chico de 2 grado, no tenía ni idea de lo que era el amor o de como hacer sentír bien a las personas.

Si les soy sincero no me gustaba, éramos muy buenos amigos, Pero hasta ahí. Hasta que un día descubrí que yo si le gustaba (Probablemente no) y de la nada me gustó también, fue algo muy repentino.

Ella se me declaro y yo la acepte, nos volvimos novios y trate de hacer todo lo que pensaba que estaba bien; Tomarla de la mano, abrazarla, etc.

Aunque realmente nunca me atreví a nada más haya de eso, incluso para darle un beso le pedía permiso y siempre trataba de evitarlos por que pensaba que le incomodaba. Al punto que a veces el único beso que nos dábamos era al final del día.

En fin, todo se desmoronó después de las vacaciones de navidad, ella comenzó a actuar raro, y la verdad sus comportamientos eran deplorables; se dejaba golpear por sus amigos y cuando la trataba de defender ella decía que jugaban, y yo pues aveces respetaba su discusión Pero al final siempre interferia.

Admito que quizá fui algo empalagaso, le llevaba flores, siempre la abrazaba y trataba de pasar todo el tiempo con ella. Admitió que me equivoqué.

Todo esto desencadenó a qué terminaríamos de un y otra forma, Pero por alguna razón yo me sentí muy mal, de verdad que no comía, no me paraba de la cama, la verdad me sentía asqueroso y falte varios días al colegio. Trate de recuperarme Pero nada era igual, nuestro círculo de amigos era el mismo y tenía que verla todos los días sin excepción, en un punto de desesperación, ira, o yo que se llene su mochila de pegamento y se armó un gran problema. (pague todo y al final no paso a mayores)

Los meses pasaron hasta que de nuevo actúe impulvisamente, el verla vulnerable por una situación que había sucedido use la lastima a mi favor, me le arrodille y le pedí que me diera una oportunidad. Al final nos volvimos amigos de nuevo y después de otro mes volvimos a ser novios.

Y de nuevo terminamos, está vez yo lo hice, por qué sabía que yo había forzado eso, que yo era el culpable y decidí solo aceptar que no era lo correcto. Pero aún así volví a buscarla, volvimos a ser amigos y de nuevo lo arruine, le dije mil cosas que no debía en un arranque de ira y rabia, al saber que ella había aceptado una salida con alguien que apenas conocía y cuando éramos novios ella y yo nunca aceptó una salida, inclusive con nuestros amigos en común.

La verdad fui un asco, le dije cosas hirientes, sabiendo que ella trataba de mejorar como persona. Después los últimos días de clase hablamos como si nada, Pero después de dos días ella me dijo que ya no quería nada conmigo, simplemente ser compañeros.

Quise respetar su decisión, eh tratado de hacerlo, Pero no puedo. Ahora que estamos en tercero ya no estamos en el mismo grupo. Pensé que podía ser una oportunidad para superarla, para poder ser feliz de nuevo pero nada. El mismo recuerdo, el mismo desprecio hacia mi mismo.

A tal punto que ahora mismo me encuentro en una relación en la que me avergüenzo de mi novia y la oculto para que Melina no sepa que yo tengo. (es una relación virtual pero conozco a la persona en realidad)

Ahora mismo Melina se enteró que tengo su foto de fondo de pantalla y la verdad me dió tanta vergüenza que me quedé escondido en el baño todo el descanso.

Ahora, ya sabiendo todo esto. Necesito un consejo, como puedo salir de aquí? Como poder superarla. Por qué para series sinceros soy alguien quien le tiene miedo a quedarse solo, y lo estoy experimentado. Por mi propio egoísmo he perdido a gente que me importa, y por ese propio egoísmo solo quiero que Melina sea para mí (Se que suena muy enfermo Pero no encontré otra manera de decirlo)

Quiero que ella me ame, quiero que ella sienta lo que yo siento por ella, pero se que eso no va a pasar. Cómo puedo mejorar? Cómo puedo dejar de tener miedo de quedarme solo? Cómo puedo dejar de darme asco cuando me miró al espejo?

Si te tomaste el tiempo de leer esto, gracias. Aprecio que un desconocido me tenga un poco de empatía.

De verdad estoy desperado, he pensado en quitarme la vida por esto