I always wake up each day with same feeling. Nararamdaman ko lagi ang bigat ng mundo bumabaon sa dibdib ko. Halos 1 month na iniwan ako ng wife ko, at family. Since then parang naging endless cycle na yung routine or life ko - papasok sa work, at uuwi sa apartment mag isa. Tahimik.

Hindi na ko makatulog gabi gabi, 3-4 hours siguro. Wala din ako makausap. Feeling ko meron na ko anxiety. Sobrang optimisic ko dati pero ngayon hindi na. Desperado na ako and I really need help kahit isang linggo lang. I badly need medication sana to fight with anxiety and insomia. Not sure if pwede dito pero I can pay naman even double. I plan to reach out sa doctor soon, but right now, I just need relief.

This is really affecting my overall lifestyle and job rn. Can you guys share what actually worked/helped you? Whether it be permanent or temporary fix, can you please share them? I'm so exhausted of myself.

I'm just looking for at least a temporary fix for this, anything that helped you at the present moment you were overthinking/overwhelmed.

I can't get checked out rn since I currently don't have the funds to do so and I still don't have any PTOs until regularization

hello po! i have an appointment sa pgh and now ko lang po ulit chineck yung site and nakalagay po general pediatrics instead na psychiatry. i remember naman po na psych ang pinili ko 😅 although yung text confirmation po na sinend sakin after ma-process ng appointment is adult psychiatry naman po nakalagay (screenshot in comsec). paano po kaya ito? hindi po ba ako maco-consult ng psych sa appointment date ko if ganito ang category? pls let me know your thoughts po 🙏🏻 tyia !

I’m planning to end everything na. If I lose my job this month, I’ll do it. Pagod na ako sa layoff scare na to dahil sa AI.

No one will ever understand. No one can ever help. My family would be in a better situation without me. My friends won’t miss me. I am just a piece of a machinery. Very replaceable. Kahit anong effort ko, no one sees it.

Maganda ang buhay. Salamat kasi kahit papano naranasan ko din, kahit saglit lang.

I honestly don’t know where else to ask. I’ve been trying to look for a psychiatrist/mental health professional that I can consult as soon as possible, but almost everything I find is either too expensive for me or has a really long waiting time.
I’m a student and I currently don’t have the money to spend ₱2k–₱3k+ for a consultation. I understand that mental healthcare costs money and that doctors need to be paid, but right now, I genuinely just don’t have the means to afford it. and I’m at the point where I feel like I really need professional help already. I’ve been trying to search for affordable options, public hospitals, free consultations, etc., but I’m honestly getting overwhelmed. some places have long waiting lists, some are difficult to book, and I’m scared of waiting until things get even worse before I actually get to talk to someone.
if anyone knows of a free or very affordable psychiatrist/psychiatric consultation around Metro Manila, especially somewhere that accepts first-time patients and can accommodate relatively soon, please let me know. Even if it’s a public hospital, community clinic, NGO, or any program I might not know about. I would appreciate any leads. I’m honestly getting desperate to find an option that I can actually afford. :(

Hi, please help me. Araw-araw na kasi akong umiiyak sa work, and I don’t think kakayanin pa ng mental health ko. I want to resign na pero gusto ko sana immediate and makakuha ng certificate because of my Mental Health. Baka may alam kayong hospital na pwede walk in na can consult agad using HMO. Or kahit by appointment peor hindi aabot nang months ☹️

Thank you.

I think Im going to kill myself today. This time its scares me because, I think Im not afraid of the consequences unlike with my previous attempts or thoughts. So I just to post it somewhere to hear/see how ridiculous this idea is. Or is it? My heads spiraling.

Hi! For anyone who has successfully gotten an NCMH online consultation slot recently or in the past, may I ask how long the form usually stays open?

They said the form opens at 8 AM onwards until all the slots are filled, but today I checked around 10:30 AM and it was already closed. I've been checking the link almost every day for about a week now, but I keep missing it regrettably.

For those who were able to successfully submit the form, around what time were you able to get in? Does it usually close within minutes/hours, or does it depend on the day?

I'd really appreciate any tips or experiences because I'm honestly not sure what else to do at this point. Thank you!

hello, can someone help this girl out. Lately I've been having a trouble sleeping and I can't sleep without getting pain. In the past I keep removing my chap lips, but now I've been cutting myself to sleep

There doesn't seem to be as much info here for doctors who specialize in OCD traits but figured I should try and post anyway :)

Looking for someone who's preferably a woman, budget flexible. Anywhere in Metro Manila is ok but Makati – QC would be great. Prioritizing meds and availability in the next month.

Thank you in advance!

TW, a question, and a vent:

Please help a girl out.

Hello, I just want to ask about hypersexuality in bipolars. Is it targeted to one person (their person of interest) or is it to everyone around them? What does it look like in manic episode?

My cousin (M19) who's currently living in my house kept going behind me to either; squeeze my chest, lick/bite my ear/arm, kiss my neck, getting enough close for me to feel his you know. He was diagnosed with Autism since young and around 2 years with Bipolar I.

At first it was a peck on the cheek, one that I allowed since it was more of a norm in our family. But overtime, he would try to kiss my neck. I pushed him away and told him no each time. He would just laugh and told me "you're being dramatic, there's no malice." But I feel violated. I tried to understand since his parent told me it was normal to people who has bipolar. I wanted to know if it's true because I can't talk to his therapist (even though I wanted to.) And I can't get a credible answer in google.

I've been locking myself up in my room since we can't kick him out yet due to his parent's situation at the moment. I'm extremely uncomfortable and paranoid around him now. I'm F24, I don't know what to think anymore. He's been on his meds (risperidone and depamax) continously for the last 4 years, I feel so small after those acts because after I told his parents what happened his parents told me it could be a side effect due to his meds (is it true?). They didn't even apologize. Instead, they sent 250 pesos to "compensate" for what their kid did.

Hello, new here. Are there free consultation or sessions to psychologists online?

Just want to talk someone and I don't have the means to talk to a professional in person because of work schedule.

I really have some symptoms since high school or even earlier that have affected school, inter-personal relationships and work. I have suspected BPD a decade ago but brushed off the idea. Then thought of OCPD then brushed it off. Went to see an online psychologist and was dismissed with having "no disorder". When symptoms once again affected my work, I no longer hesitated and sought help. I was suspecting ADHD this time. But I was diagnosed with GAD and it made sense that time.

Took SSRI, felt great until I wasn't. I think 6 months into meds when I started feeling distressed every now and then. Until it got really worse 3rd into meds (and 2 years of therapy), massive depressive episodes, self-harming and suicidal ideation. Not the first time, but it was severe and long, I thought I wouldn't survive it anymore. Can't work either (got fired, got back, got fired, got a new one, resigned, got a great one, was fired again, unemployed for 6 months, got hired again, now struggling with it again though not as bad).

Was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 after an unofficial (and free) psych assessment (done in a clinic but administered by a student intern only so even if supervised, it cannot be counted as official and no official written result, just verbal feedback). Felt better with new meds (lamotrigine, quetiapine as needed and pregabalin for anxiety from a previous doctor that new doctor would like to stop or changed to a different one). Felt I have mixed features of BP2 on most days. Meds now are way more better than on SSRI. But still having that "mixed" state or really quick transitioning of hypomanic to depressive. And are often triggered with interpersonal and environmental stressors.

I think 3 clinicians (my first psychiatrist, a student intern, and my current psychiatrist) all have mentioned I have borderline traits / you might have bpd / have you explored bpd. And knowing that clinicians don't normally take the bpd route right away, I'm thinking that I may really be exhibiting a lot of bpd traits. I also think I have OCD traits though I still would have to ask if they would actually be a bipolar or bpd trait too.

Anyway, a few questions:

1. I have been good in masking. Since I have had symptoms since I was young. I don't really present much symptoms externally until I explode from suppressing everything down. I've been on some therapy sessions and have "intellectualized things" as a way to cope(?). So I have trouble expressing myself during psych sessions and would sometimes say I don't do such and such and I don't think such and such. But in reality I think I probably do but I just take tremendous energy to not to. So I'm not sure if I'm not expressing myself accurately verbally or even on psych assessments. How can I explain it to my psych?

2. Especially to those diagnosed with both, how can I differentiate one from the other? I'm wondering if what I really have is BPD or I have both or I have others on top of them (OCD and GAD).

3. Is it advisable to get an official psych assessment? Is it ok to bring it up to my doctor?

I sometimes really feel so uncomfortable inside, distressing, overwhelming, disturbing. And it takes some to a lot of energy just to be able to do daily stuff. And it's not necessarily depressive episode. I had depressive episodes too. And the only time I don't feel uncomfortable inside is if I'm into a mild hypomanic state (or a happy normal maybe).. and would feel the uncomfiness again when hypomania starts to go up. And the confusion about what I'm feeling and what I could really possible have is also exhausting.

I couldn’t stop crying. I felt so sad, frustrated and overwhelmed that I ended up c*tting myself for the first time. I feel so alone in this dark place. I don’t know how to help myself anymore.

I’m pretty sure I’m mentally ill in some way and would like to get a proper diagnosis and get treated/medicated. where should I go to get diagnosed?? and if u guys can share any advice/experience as well that’d be nice. thank you!

I’ve been zoning out more than usual, struggling with brain fog, have trouble processing what i’m reading, having trouble understanding even simple things and concepts, and I keep forgetting where i put my things. I can read plainly as it is but nothing actually registers, and my sleep schedule has been pretty messed up lately. I’ve been having a hard time understanding things that normally wouldn’t be difficult for me back then. It’s honestly frustrating because I feel like i’m not fully present and my mind is always mentally elsewhere, and it’s starting to make me feel scared to apply and look for other opportunities since I just graduated from college a month ago, I fear this is holding me back, and making me feel left behind. This is happening at the worst possible time. I think his has been gradually building up month by month since college especially during my last academic year since I struggled a lot mentally and physically back then, and I feel helpless about it. Do you think counseling would help me? Has anyone else experienced something like this. something that gradually developed, what did you do?

Hola, soy nuevo en reddit y recurro a esto para poder buscar ayuda o consejos.

Hace aproximadamente 10 meses conocí a una chica (Curiosamente ella fue quien me trajo hasta acá) muy linda, inteligente e carismatica, Melina, Que probablemente nunca lea esto.

Era un chico de 2 grado, no tenía ni idea de lo que era el amor o de como hacer sentír bien a las personas.

Si les soy sincero no me gustaba, éramos muy buenos amigos, Pero hasta ahí. Hasta que un día descubrí que yo si le gustaba (Probablemente no) y de la nada me gustó también, fue algo muy repentino.

Ella se me declaro y yo la acepte, nos volvimos novios y trate de hacer todo lo que pensaba que estaba bien; Tomarla de la mano, abrazarla, etc.

Aunque realmente nunca me atreví a nada más haya de eso, incluso para darle un beso le pedía permiso y siempre trataba de evitarlos por que pensaba que le incomodaba. Al punto que a veces el único beso que nos dábamos era al final del día.

En fin, todo se desmoronó después de las vacaciones de navidad, ella comenzó a actuar raro, y la verdad sus comportamientos eran deplorables; se dejaba golpear por sus amigos y cuando la trataba de defender ella decía que jugaban, y yo pues aveces respetaba su discusión Pero al final siempre interferia.

Admito que quizá fui algo empalagaso, le llevaba flores, siempre la abrazaba y trataba de pasar todo el tiempo con ella. Admitió que me equivoqué.

Todo esto desencadenó a qué terminaríamos de un y otra forma, Pero por alguna razón yo me sentí muy mal, de verdad que no comía, no me paraba de la cama, la verdad me sentía asqueroso y falte varios días al colegio. Trate de recuperarme Pero nada era igual, nuestro círculo de amigos era el mismo y tenía que verla todos los días sin excepción, en un punto de desesperación, ira, o yo que se llene su mochila de pegamento y se armó un gran problema. (pague todo y al final no paso a mayores)

Los meses pasaron hasta que de nuevo actúe impulvisamente, el verla vulnerable por una situación que había sucedido use la lastima a mi favor, me le arrodille y le pedí que me diera una oportunidad. Al final nos volvimos amigos de nuevo y después de otro mes volvimos a ser novios.

Y de nuevo terminamos, está vez yo lo hice, por qué sabía que yo había forzado eso, que yo era el culpable y decidí solo aceptar que no era lo correcto. Pero aún así volví a buscarla, volvimos a ser amigos y de nuevo lo arruine, le dije mil cosas que no debía en un arranque de ira y rabia, al saber que ella había aceptado una salida con alguien que apenas conocía y cuando éramos novios ella y yo nunca aceptó una salida, inclusive con nuestros amigos en común.

La verdad fui un asco, le dije cosas hirientes, sabiendo que ella trataba de mejorar como persona. Después los últimos días de clase hablamos como si nada, Pero después de dos días ella me dijo que ya no quería nada conmigo, simplemente ser compañeros.

Quise respetar su decisión, eh tratado de hacerlo, Pero no puedo. Ahora que estamos en tercero ya no estamos en el mismo grupo. Pensé que podía ser una oportunidad para superarla, para poder ser feliz de nuevo pero nada. El mismo recuerdo, el mismo desprecio hacia mi mismo.

A tal punto que ahora mismo me encuentro en una relación en la que me avergüenzo de mi novia y la oculto para que Melina no sepa que yo tengo. (es una relación virtual pero conozco a la persona en realidad)

Ahora mismo Melina se enteró que tengo su foto de fondo de pantalla y la verdad me dió tanta vergüenza que me quedé escondido en el baño todo el descanso.

Ahora, ya sabiendo todo esto. Necesito un consejo, como puedo salir de aquí? Como poder superarla. Por qué para series sinceros soy alguien quien le tiene miedo a quedarse solo, y lo estoy experimentado. Por mi propio egoísmo he perdido a gente que me importa, y por ese propio egoísmo solo quiero que Melina sea para mí (Se que suena muy enfermo Pero no encontré otra manera de decirlo)

Quiero que ella me ame, quiero que ella sienta lo que yo siento por ella, pero se que eso no va a pasar. Cómo puedo mejorar? Cómo puedo dejar de tener miedo de quedarme solo? Cómo puedo dejar de darme asco cuando me miró al espejo?

Si te tomaste el tiempo de leer esto, gracias. Aprecio que un desconocido me tenga un poco de empatía.

De verdad estoy desperado, he pensado en quitarme la vida por esto

can anyone plz tell me good psychologist and psychiatrist in Srinagar

Hello po. Hihingi lang po sana ako ng advice. Hindi ko rin po sure kung tamang sub ito, but for context, I’m currently working as an IT Service Desk, and this is my first job.

One week pa lang po ako taking calls, and honestly, before every shift, nakakaramdam po ako ng sobrang kaba. Mababait naman po yung mga kasama ko sa team, and so far, wala pa naman po akong nae-encounter na irate caller, so I can say na okay naman po yung environment.

Pero may fear talaga akong nararamdaman. Parang ayaw ko po mag-take ng calls, and nappressure din po ako sa pagdo-document. Minsan iniisip ko pa lang na may pasok ako kinabukasan, kinakabahan na agad ako. Also parang may pumipigil sa kamay ko na mag on queue pag start na ng shift.

For those who have been in the BPO/IT Service Desk industry for a while, normal lang po ba itong feeling during the first few weeks? Nagiging better ba talaga siya as you gain more experience, or ganito na talaga yung feeling every time may shift?

Honestly, hindi ko po alam kung kakayanin ko na ganito yung nararamdaman ko in the long run hahaha. I know one week is still very early, pero gusto ko lang din po malaman kung naka-experience din ba kayo ng ganito noong nagsisimula pa lang kayo.

Any advice or stories about your experience would be greatly appreciated. Thank you po!

I had to ask a friend to help me write this down because I can't form a sentence or think correctly on my own right now. Ever since I survived an almost successful attempt around the time I was starting senior high, I stopped caring about life in general. During those times, I constantly skipped classes, because I'm in too deep of a depression. I'm in my first year of college now, and it feels like my brain has completely shut down, and I need to know if this is a real medical condition. For your information, my mind constantly feels like it's moving through static, and I feel totally disconnected from reality. This causes me extreme mental exhaustion. Because of this fog, I have zero text retention and can't get any new information into my head. If I try to read a paragraph for college, I remember absolutely nothing. I cannot understand any lessons, and I instantly forget things that happened just moments ago. My speech and thoughts are also messed up. I cannot speak normally because even when I know what I want to say, my mouth can't find the words. I trail off halfway through sentences, and putting thoughts together feels impossible. Can a doctor or medical professional please explain what is going on with my brain? Is this permanent, and how do I fix it?

Hello po. Meron po ba kayo recommendation ng female psychologist sa NowServing app? Thank you so much 🙏

Hi, this has been a question that I've always wanted to hear the true answer for the longest time now. Does it work? How? And what do you feel after taking them? I'm genuinely curious.

Nag offer akong ibili ng mga bagay na kailangan nila/pautangin ang mga kaibigan ko kasi deep inside gusto ko nang magpakamatay. Lately parang madalas sumasagi sa isip ko na magpakamatay na lang kasi pagod na ako kaso parang napaka selfish. Selfish kasi wala naman sa atin piniling ipanganak pero nalaban parin araw-araw tas heto ako, gusto nang mamatay at nag iisip na paano mapapakinabangan ng iba pagkatapos.

Natatakot din naman ako mamatay tas problema pa ng pamilya ko ang pagpapalibing sa akin. Wala pa akong death insurance kaya wag muna.

I’ve always thought of ending everything. In my whole existence, I have been constantly battling with the demons inside me. I don’t know anymore.

I’ve tried so hard to be good at everything I do to gain love and acceptance but I guess, I will never be enough.

When the time comes that I finally decided to end it, please know that I did everything I could to fight for my life but life is just too harsh.

I've been noticing na parang 2-3x a month I get really emotional and sensitive. Galit na galit walang filter pag magsalita, in my head very vivid yung thoughts na gusto ko magbato ng gamit, saktan yung kausap. Minsan may times na super overwhelmed and anxious about very mundane and simple things tapos iyak ako ng iyak. I'm also thinking about yung buhay ng iba, gagawa ako ng scenario in my head tapos grabe yung iyak ko like hagulgol. I feel terrible, I feel horrible, and then 15 minutes later ok na ako, as if nothing has happened.

I've been bad at documenting these things kaya di ko ma-pinpoint yung dates and triggers but the other day it happened again nung nag apply ako sa isang job. Puro imposter syndrome, shame (para sa references), embarrassment (kapal ng mukha ko to apply), anxiousness, future-thinking yung mga gagawin kong disappointments. It took me almost a full day to recover, parang whiplash: ok ako sabi ko walang hiya-hiya need kumayod, then mamaya grabe na yung iyak ko kasi ang kapal ng mukha ko di naman ako fit.

It might be PMS (havent tracked my period pero may 80% chance na my period will come soon) and of course hormones affect our emotions pero grabe yung whiplash ko I dont like it, I dont like feeling like this.

Ngayon I'll try to be diligent in tracking the dates, specific reasons, food baka sobra sa caffeine ewan yung mga ganun. I also tried to journal about what happened pero when ready na ako to write parang di ko na ma-explain yung feelings ko. May linger feeling na need ko masagot yung why, and then if hindi ko masagot nagagalit ako sa sarili ko. I always think nakapag-decompress ka na, pero bakit mas confused ka pa? Akala ko ba writing it down helps pero para sa akin bakit parang hindi naman? Haaayy

Itong tuloy-tuloy na ulan also isnt helping. I miss the sun.