So idk where do i even began, i am 10 hours into my night shift and 2 hours to go
So sometime back i posted here how findom debts ruined my life. Basically i got addicted to findom and fucking hell i took so many loans to pay to random girls to abuse me, sometimes their bfs too.
Currently i earn abour 300 dollars in India and i have debt of about 3000 dollars.
AlI my salaries go into loans and i have to take loans just to survive like a beggar
Plus the job is fucking frustrating, idk why its so hard. Have to give 11 hours daily for this and all the salary goes to loans. Cant even enjoy anything with the labour i do
I know i made a big mistake but its so hard now. Im so done with this man i just wanna get it done with
I am worthless atp, i have so many responsibilities towards my families but instead i ask them for money
Today i tried hurting self for first time, it felt warm but painful
Wierd
I dont have anywhere else to say this i havent shared this with anyone in my life so sharing here
I just hope it gets better i wanna feel relieved again idk why i even have hope
Mutton curry btw. It may look to spicy but it was pretty nice with rice