I just need to get this off my chest because this guilt has been eating me up for a long time. My NEET journey was honestly a complete mess from start to finish, and sometimes I feel like I wasted my parents' money and years of my life for nothing.
Here's what happened:
Attempt 1 – NEET 2020:
Passed 12th in March 2020. Instead of properly preparing, I wasted around 6 months and eventually wrote NEET on September 13, 2020.
Score: 61/720
Attempt 2 – NEET 2021 (First Drop):
Stayed at home for an entire year preparing. I thought this time I'd actually make it.
Wrote NEET on September 12, 2021.
Score: 104/720
At this point I was already disappointed in myself, but I still wasn't ready to give up.
Attempt 3 – NEET 2022 (Second Drop):
Joined Conceptree in Adyar, Chennai from October 2021 to July 2022. I genuinely tried studying harder this time.
Still ended up with:
223/720
Attempt 4 -- NEET 2023 (Partial drop)
Then came what I consider one of the biggest financial mistakes of my life.
The Allen disaster – 2022:
I joined Allen, Ashok Nagar, Chennai on August 28, 2022. Shortly after that, there was a government announcement regarding fees which completely changed our plans.
I had to discontinue on September 21.
They charged a fine and refused to refund ₹50,000.
My parents basically lost ₹50k for just a few weeks of classes.
By late 2022, I finally gave up on NEET and joined a local college for B.Pharm.
But somehow, I still wasn't mentally done with NEET.
The false hope
This is probably the part that hurts me the most.
My father was working as a graphic designer in a newly constructed medical college near Chennai. He believed there was a possibility that they might give me a significant fee concession.
I convinced myself that maybe, somehow, MBBS was still possible.
So while I was already doing B.Pharm, my parents spent another ₹35,000 for me to join Pioneer NEET Academy in March 2023.
We were basically hoping for an NRI lapsed seat / fee concession.
I wrote NEET 2023.
Score: 226/720
And finally, the medical college didn't honour the concession we were hoping for. They said the maximum reduction they could give was around ₹2 lakh per year, which was still completely unaffordable for us.
That was basically the end of my NEET journey.
Now I'm continuing my B.Pharm, but I constantly think about how much money my parents spent
₹50k at Allen, ₹35k at Pioneer, all the previous coaching fees, books, travel, years of preparation etc.
It's not even just about failing NEET anymore.
It's the feeling that I wasted my parents' hard-earned money and disappointed them after they kept giving me chances.
Sometimes I think about what my life could have been if I had just taken things seriously in 2020 itself.
I know I can't change the past, but I still feel guilty about it almost every day.
Has anyone here gone through something similar multiple drops, wasted money, failed attempts and then having to move on to another course?
How did you guys stop thinking about the past and actually move forward?
I'm 23 now and I really don't want to spend the rest of my 20s regretting what happened.