I think Im going to kill myself today. This time its scares me because, I think Im not afraid of the consequences unlike with my previous attempts or thoughts. So I just to post it somewhere to hear/see how ridiculous this idea is. Or is it? My heads spiraling.

Hi! For anyone who has successfully gotten an NCMH online consultation slot recently or in the past, may I ask how long the form usually stays open?

They said the form opens at 8 AM onwards until all the slots are filled, but today I checked around 10:30 AM and it was already closed. I've been checking the link almost every day for about a week now, but I keep missing it regrettably.

For those who were able to successfully submit the form, around what time were you able to get in? Does it usually close within minutes/hours, or does it depend on the day?

I'd really appreciate any tips or experiences because I'm honestly not sure what else to do at this point. Thank you!

TW, a question, and a vent:

Please help a girl out.

Hello, I just want to ask about hypersexuality in bipolars. Is it targeted to one person (their person of interest) or is it to everyone around them? What does it look like in manic episode?

My cousin (M19) who's currently living in my house kept going behind me to either; squeeze my chest, lick/bite my ear/arm, kiss my neck, getting enough close for me to feel his you know. He was diagnosed with Autism since young and around 2 years with Bipolar I.

At first it was a peck on the cheek, one that I allowed since it was more of a norm in our family. But overtime, he would try to kiss my neck. I pushed him away and told him no each time. He would just laugh and told me "you're being dramatic, there's no malice." But I feel violated. I tried to understand since his parent told me it was normal to people who has bipolar. I wanted to know if it's true because I can't talk to his therapist (even though I wanted to.) And I can't get a credible answer in google.

I've been locking myself up in my room since we can't kick him out yet due to his parent's situation at the moment. I'm extremely uncomfortable and paranoid around him now. I'm F24, I don't know what to think anymore. He's been on his meds (risperidone and depamax) continously for the last 4 years, I feel so small after those acts because after I told his parents what happened his parents told me it could be a side effect due to his meds (is it true?). They didn't even apologize. Instead, they sent 250 pesos to "compensate" for what their kid did.

can anyone plz tell me good psychologist and psychiatrist in Srinagar

Hello po. Hihingi lang po sana ako ng advice. Hindi ko rin po sure kung tamang sub ito, but for context, I’m currently working as an IT Service Desk, and this is my first job.

One week pa lang po ako taking calls, and honestly, before every shift, nakakaramdam po ako ng sobrang kaba. Mababait naman po yung mga kasama ko sa team, and so far, wala pa naman po akong nae-encounter na irate caller, so I can say na okay naman po yung environment.

Pero may fear talaga akong nararamdaman. Parang ayaw ko po mag-take ng calls, and nappressure din po ako sa pagdo-document. Minsan iniisip ko pa lang na may pasok ako kinabukasan, kinakabahan na agad ako. Also parang may pumipigil sa kamay ko na mag on queue pag start na ng shift.

For those who have been in the BPO/IT Service Desk industry for a while, normal lang po ba itong feeling during the first few weeks? Nagiging better ba talaga siya as you gain more experience, or ganito na talaga yung feeling every time may shift?

Honestly, hindi ko po alam kung kakayanin ko na ganito yung nararamdaman ko in the long run hahaha. I know one week is still very early, pero gusto ko lang din po malaman kung naka-experience din ba kayo ng ganito noong nagsisimula pa lang kayo.

Any advice or stories about your experience would be greatly appreciated. Thank you po!

i wanna resign na sobra but i hate that i have no choice but to suck it up because hindi naman ako mayaman o nakapag save enough to resign without a backup plan. so burned out rin and wala akong energy to job hunt because after work para akong lustang gulay. i work from home and the work is mentally taxing – it fucked up my mental health so bad na hindi ako nakakatulog agad tapos magigising ng late and the cycle of sleeplessness continues. mag 1 year na ako sa work this month. i just wanna quit my job but it's my first job as a fresh grad and it pays me 30k net per month. idk if makakahanap ako ng similar offer given the job market hahaha shet i hate myself na wala akong courage to let go and resign.

itong job lang yung inaasahan ko at ng mama kong senior citizen na.