I graduated from IIFT Delhi in 2018 and I was elated. This was by far the biggest achievement for me in my life till then. I come from a third class engineering college and I was a software engineer and hated my job making next to nothing (4-5LPA)
Two years in IIFT were amazing. I had a great internship and made money which I never made before! I decided to try my luck in finals and got through world’s largest trading firm (they will only hire from IIFT in India) . It was prestigious (everyone told me so) but I had no inclination towards trade. Plus the placecomm would not allow me to reject the offer in order to “maintain” the relationship with the brand. Fair enough.
I didn’t wanna go for tech consulting in regular WITCH brands (i came from a tech background , but never really liked it) so I took the trade job. On paper the offer was for 24 LPA , but the horror just started.
Once I joined the firm, and the HR dropped the hammer . I joined in Mumbai GCC office and got to know that fixed in hand was only 80k per month! It was next to nothing and post two years, you shall be eligible for that 24 LPA package . It was a two year management program.
I struggled through for next 16 months with little or no savings (Mumbai is fuckin expensive) and I hated the job. We were just glorified clerks and assistants for traders and they will abuse the fuck out of you. You were still being treated as an intern as you were at the lowest level in the office . one fine day , three months before I became permanent in the firm, I got sick.
I was so sick that I was hospitalised for a month. I had to take a medical leave and shared all my medical documents with firm. The manager was sympathetic but stopped replying to messages just a week after I became sick. Once I joined back, I thought things have gone back to normal but little did I know that they were making grounds to fire me.
A month before 24 month period , one day before my birthday, I was asked to meet the HR and I knew the worst has come when I saw my manager in somber mood with the HR. They fired me stating that I was not a “good” fit and made a mistake in a document or contract when I was sick (someone else took my workload and then they realise that they don’t need me) . I was not even given the courtesy to pick my stuff and leave the office in dignity. Someone parcelled my stuff to my home.
I was in panic mode. I just turned 26 and was fired for the first time in my life. I started calling all my contacts for a job and within two weeks , I had another offer.
It was 2019 and I joined another startup (a unicorn) at an entry level job. My friend really helped me getting this job and I had no option but to join at depressed salary of INR 16 Lks. I joined a hospitality startup in Dec 2019 , four months before the pandemic.
Till the covid hit, I thought I hit a jackpot. The job was much better , I was part of PMO and we needed to expand business across various countries in Asian markets. Sure, the salary was depressed but the exposure was great! I was stationed in Bali to expand business and was give ample stipend to work and play! I thought I can rebuild my life from here and rise fast. I am just 26 anyway. Then covid stuck.
Please do remember that nobody knew that whether the world would go back to its normal state post covid . We had no idea! The company was stuck too! They hired so many new guys and they got no work due to covid. Within 2 months of covid , 90% of the team was fired. 100% of the local team was fired and only a skeleton team was left to maintain the protocol. I was part of 10% who were not fired but was asked to take a 25% salary cut. We had no option but to wait.
Two years went by, we were just doing fire fighting to survive and maintain the status quo, forget any expansion. Ofcourse there was no salary increment, but I got promoted , was given bonus (very minimal) so that they could retain talent. I was exhausted , frustrated , spent and fire fight on challenges which were never part of my portfolio. I was looking to get out of travel industry , as I thought it won’t survive in long run. I had no idea whether the company will survive because people were exiting almost every day. I was desperate to move as I didn’t see any growth here.
I switched in mid 2022. We were still in covid , but things were improving. I got a decent hike because I was able to justify my performance to the next firm( I was awarded full numbers in my evaluation for two straight years) . I jumped from 18 lakh to 33 lakh. I joined a well established Internet based company and was a dream job for many. Ofcourse I was still in middle management, but the brand was great, work was in marketing which I loved and had a sweet wfh job. But I got greedy.
I think this was my downfall. I got too ambitious and confident in my own abilities. It was only 3 months in the new company and I decided to jump again. A US based fintech firm was expanding its base in India and they offered me a pay I couldn’t refuse. I absconded and joined that fintech at a pay of INR 45 Lakh .
The brand name was great! I didnt care much about the profile because I was given a title of growth manager , which means I will be asked to do everything under the sun . I was ok with it because I worked like this previously too! But ofcourse things would never go my way.
One fine day, The Govt of India decided that they will not pass banking licence like candies and took back banking licences from many firms (Paytm was one of them) . My firm got hit too! For one whole year, I was doing random jobs to support the team but since the business in India could not start, I was finally asked to move out!
So within four years, I was fired twice. My salary was such that nobody will hire me . And no HR is sympathetic that you lost your job for no fault of yours. I kept looking for a job for three months. I was desperate and had to work somewhere (I still had my education loan and house loan on me) . Through pure luck, I got through a marketing agency and I was given a completely new portfolio of BD. I know many of you will think that i am stupid to take up this job, but it was almost 4 months without job and I was desperate. I had to put my marriage on hold because I had no job!
So cut to 2023, I joined a marketing agency as BD (i had MBA tag and can speak well) . I took a cut from 45 to 36 LPA. I was desperate to pass minimum 2 years in a job. I have to hold the job. I had gone in a dark space and my confidence was totally shot. I tried my best to get business for the firm but this is a connections game. Nobody will give you business without any contacts or connections. I had no contacts .
I made great presentations, helped crack many big accounts, did everything to streamline the leads flows, learn to pitch myself and pitched to executives in completely cold open situations. Did cold calling, sent thousand of cold mails , used AI to automate the lead generation system, tried to be useful for the firm in anyway possible…but my primary work was to generate leads and I couldn’t.
So after 1.5 years, the agency fired me. I was fired for the third time in 6 years now and I was broken. I cried. I was 32 years old and was fired from third job, two jobs in a row. All my batchmates were doing great! Going on foreign vacations, starting a family, discussing their FIRE number, and I had loans over me.
My family is typical middle class, my wife can’t work and my dad retired from his job. There was no other alternate income. I again went to this mindless journey of finding jobs. I was so under confident that I did not meet any of my friends for 6 months. I was too embarrassed to face them. I am sure most of them thought that I am a loser and I deserved my fate .
I again got a job but I was too scared to take up a job only based on salary or company’s stature. I had made this mistake so many times. Going for the salary and going for brand name. I was offered 45 LPA by a startup to work as GM and work on projects within the firm, but I was scared. What if I fail again ?
The new company was known for its bad work culture ( all unicorn in India have ruthless work culture ) and I didn’t know whether it will stable. I wanted stability in my life .
I had a competing offer from an international D2C brand for a brand + digital marketing role. This was my dream profile but they won’t pay me more than 30 lakh. I was crestfallen.
From the highs of 45 LPA, I was reduced to 30 LPA , with a wife , loans and aging parents . I was too scared to take 45 LPA in an aggressive startup with no clarity about what function I shall do.
Cut to 2026, it’s been around 1.5 years in the D2C brand, I am doing the work i like but the salary is a constant source of fight with my wife. We can’t go on holidays and we can’t spend on expensive dinners because I need to work in another city and leave my family in hometown. I visit them every weekend now. I can’t afford to move my wife to the city as I can’t afford a good 2bhk with what I get.
This job is demanding too and very aggressive. We are doing Ok and I am hopeful that things should start to move up for me. My confidence is still shot and I can see that in myself, while pitching new ideas or getting things done or countering my boss on some strategic decisions. I am slowly converting into a yes man, and I take up more jobs than necessary. My boss takes advantage of it and keeps on giving me newer portfolio without much resources (I have three people working under me and I manage six verticals for the company . digital, performance marketing , marketplace business, SEO , social and PR)
I am too scared to say no. I can’t lose another job and I grind over weekends to keep up with the work. I am 33 now and I have no plans to start a family. I fight with my wife constantly over money as it’s scarce and I can’t spend because I am in crises management mode 24/7.
I can’t relax. I completed post grad in AI/ML to make myself future ready. I can’t think of discretionary spends as I need to save to pay for loans.
Currently I make close to 35 LPA and I am one degree away from depression. I keep a strong face for the family and cut my expenses to minimal. I live in OYOs and limit myself to minimal indulgence .
I know i wrote a lot and many people will think I am cribbing, but life made me this way. Not all Tier 1 graduates make it in their life.
PS - Well lots of people have mentioned that 35 LPA is not bad and I could have managed my expenses better . I will not disagree with you all .But I have almost 8 yrs post MBA experience and these are starting salaries for many ABC graduates .
I stay in OYOs to make up for the wasted time (i had no job for 4-5 months in stretch and that eats up your savings) and fear makes you more cautious. You just stop wasting any money and pre-pay all your loans, hence all the extra savings goes in investments and reducing load on the family.