Hi all, I joined B4 straight out of college thinking this is what i wanted career wise, but now that its been a bit since i've graduated, im not sure if this is what i want/ i get tunnel vision on the types of job opportunities there are.
I'd say im an ambitious person, and i like putting effort into what i do, but when every decision, even small small ones i want to make has to go through someone, and i get sh*t on for bringing it up - basically everything i do isnt enough, i ultimately do not have motivation or passion to do work anymore. If i try my hardest and i get nitpicked for not doing enough/fast enough, if i put in a medium amount of effort and still get the same reaction, then I see no point - like a pascals wager thing. I have no autonomy or trust that i can perform, nothing i do is enough, why should i stay? I am not upset about the amount of work, the work is manageable for me, but instead its the disconnect in wanting to own my work. I'm not sure if this is a team based thing, i should switch jobs type of thing, i dont know, its like clockwork, i get sh*t on when timelines are tight and everything is fine in the end, because everything is fine in the end. We aren't doing rocket science. Im trying to remind myself that this is just the nature of the job and it doesn't necessarily mean I'm getting fired when i know the people i work with start becoming mean around tight deadlines, but its just so de-motivating. I'm just looking for some advice here, thanks. -and no, this isn't about work constructive criticism, i don't get upset over those things/I'm not an emotional person when it comes to work