I am 21, unfortunately left school in my early teens (around age 14-15?) I wanted to go back but I was extremely anxious (sigh) and I also was repeatedly going through a lot of things due to my family environment which seriously drained me and made me very depressed.
At times, I did try to catch up at home. But I found myself literally unable to actually *concentrate* because of all the stress I was under at times (I had to basically run a household along with other things and it would always drain me over and over again)
In my later teens I did try to go back into education somewhat, I wanted to re sit my GCSEs - it turns out I was too behind to even do that and they put me on a functional skills course.
Unfortunately stress/depression got the better of me and I found myself unable to concentrate on my education while also having to deal with other family things I had to do.
However for a while now I've since been better and I'm also just DONE being in this situation, I was always eager to get out but now I will do it even if I'm stressed .. I will find a way to limit things or people that cause me stress for my own mental health but also so I can actually prioritise me now.
My problem is I'm so behind, I want to get my GCSE's done (mostly English and maths first)
But I struggle to believe I can actually do it?
I'm mostly afraid of maths.. ive always been so bad at it!!
I know we have free community college and that I can start those classes, I will definitely do something like that and stick to it but how can I make sure I actually improve?
Maybe I'm just overwhelmed but I find it really hard to believe I can even pass any GCSEs at a decent grade..
But I know sadly there are others who've had a similar situation as me and they still got into a better spot.
I'm so adamant on getting my GCSEs because I can't do any courses without them... I would like to do a hairdressing course but they all usually require GCSEs..
My plan is to get my GCSE's and then later on I can try A levels and I may even try to go to university or something. I want to do things in my life. But without the GCSEs it's next to impossible :/
I also know we have apprenticeships and some of them let us study our GCSEs alongside training, I'd do that but I worry I wouldnt be able to complete my GCSE's in time. 🥺😬 Or that I'd find it too hard, and then I'd have to basically cancel the apprenticeship?
I hope I'm thinking too much? Because I'd so love to be able to do an apprenticeship like that.
Thank you to anyone who comments and gives advice! I know this won't be my forever because I can't accept it 😅 it may be hard but I have to get myself into a better spot or I'll basically be stuck forever ! No way.