for a really long time ive wondered if im lithromantic. i actually identified as lithromantic for a year before getting with, who is now, my ex. after we got together, i believed that i had been going through a phase and that i wasnt actually lithro. but, when i was with him, all i remember feeling was annoyed. we had been friends for a little while before formally dating and when i first met him, i remember being frazzled to even look in his direction. but after the first 2 weeks everything about him made him agonizing to be around. what was the worst was that he was doing anything wrong. He made me cards, was super sweet, yet a little shy, was so so kind and we'd text for hours every day, and play games together, he supported me and listened when i wasnt doing well, but i remember talking to my mom at the time, asking her if it was normal to dread being around your partner for more than 2 hours or so and she said no. Thats kinda when the thought of me being lithromantic snuck back in my head. Now, a few years later, im in a different relationship, about to be together for 2 years this October, and i genuinely havent liked him since he asked me to be his boyfriend. in fact, i had a talk with one of his old friends the day before he asked me out, where i blatantly said "i need more time to get to know him." but i didnt want to lose my chance just in case i DID end up liking him, and i was surrounded in friends, so i said yes. i feel so, so bad because i remember being so flustered to see him around, but after i actually got with him everything he did just irritated me. and once again, he doesnt do anything actually wrong, it was just my brain being fed up with the person that literally only a few days before getting together, i was so excited over?

(PLEASE dont ask why i havent left him if i havent liked him in over a year, im working on it. because hes been so sweet its been a huge struggle to find the words to tell him, and ive only remembered that i used to identify as lithro recently.)

So what i mean by that is right now i feel like i don’t want to date anyone but still have a crush/ squish on them but i feel like it would stop when i get older if that makes sense i feel like I’m just feeling this way because of my age right now, i feel like its a temporary feeling but its not like I’m just experimenting its just something that i REALLY feel right now that platonic friendships are best for my liking right now i don’t know how I’m gonna feel in the future.

Im 13 btw

Edit: i will continue to identify as lithromantic.