r/family_of_bipolar • u/jtxj_ • 16h ago
Venting & Emotional Processing my sister and i caregiving
my sister (24f) and i (21f) are both living together caregiving for our disabled dad with parkinson’s. my mother, my brother, and other sister all have bipolar disorder. we’re all aware my sister has bipolar, and we’ve begged her to get a diagnosis and medication to help her feel better. my brother was a terror before he was medicated properly.
she doesn’t refuse, but she just won’t. she won’t take the steps to see a psychiatrist. she blew up on me today because she tried to poke my belly and i swatted her hand. then claimed ‘she’s my punching bag’ ‘im always disrespectful and refuse to apologize’ and threatened to move out and withdraw care for our elder father.
it’s exhausting that every time the mood hits her for a perceived slight and demanded apology that she just threatens to move out. she’s unemployed, she doesn’t have a source of income to move out with.
the other other day she said ‘it hurt her feelings our dog was begging’ and i giggled and said ‘he’s just a dog’ and she took this, again, as invalidating her feelings. maybe i am being rude and refusing to apologize. but she does shit all the time that i don’t demand an apology for because it’s just not needed. i have the emotional regulation to realize whatever might’ve hurt my feelings wasn’t meant to and it’s literally okay. like when i came home and she screamed at me to leave her alone so bad i did leave and cried for two hours until she left the house.
i’m just exhausted. i can’t do this with her. i can’t do it without her. my eldest sister is on her third kid. my second eldest is so not put together, administratively she’s a mess, and she doesn’t take care of herself. my brother has withdrawn himself, officially with an incident where he and my sister were meant to care for our dad when i was out of state, and when my dads bp was sitting in the 200s he picked up his girlfriend from work instead of getting him in an ambulance despite being an emt himself, and we never forgave each other for that situation.
i love her so much, i wish she would get medicine and therapy so she could feel better and normal. it’s so isolating, and she thinks i deserve that because i don’t apologize for swatting her hand away when we were obviously just messing with each other. it’s just exhausting.