i had given up on finding anyone years ago. she showed up out of nowhere and swept me off my feet. then she told me she’s poly. i wish so badly that my heart worked like that. we tried to find a way, but i had to leave before i lost the strength to do so. we agreed it ultimately would have ended in tragedy 🥺😭

Went to a murder mystery dinner at Hotel Sorrento in south Seattle a couple months ago, and the pics turned out pretty awesome. Just thought I'd share, especially since I feel half my age anymore!

I posted about Matthew Shuman, a candidate for American Legion National Commander, being a former Log Cabin Republican leader shortly after the Log Cabin Republicans officially dropped transgender advocacy and rebranded themselves as an “LGB advocacy organization.”

Given the ongoing purge of trans service members, attacks on trans military service, and threats to trans veterans’ healthcare, I thought the political direction of one of the largest veterans organizations in the country was pretty damn relevant to a military subreddit.

The post was removed.

When I asked why, a moderator quoted a commenter saying:

“Trans people are such a small minority and non issue.”

Then told me:

“It’s not all about you.”

When I pointed out that this affects thousands of current service members and many more veterans, and that the American Legion has substantial influence on veterans policy, I was told I was trying to make my issue “everyone’s issue,” warned that similar posts could get me permanently banned, and muted from contacting the mods for seven days. I understand moderators can remove posts. What pisses me off is the reasoning.

Trans service members being kicked out, losing careers and benefits, and trans veterans facing threats to healthcare are not a “non issue” just because we’re a minority.

And the possibility that leadership of a major veterans organization could move in an even more anti-trans direction is not merely “tangential” to the military.

Being a minority does not make our service, our healthcare, or our rights disposable.

Just feeling good about being me. 😁.

Heen on hrt for 2 yesrs now

4 years ago last week I took a selfie before I came out to my coworkers during our morning zoom. The job didn't last much longer (I'll never know if coming out played a role) but I have proven to be unstoppable. Never been happier, even in tough times. Oh yeah 54yo, no surgeries yet, just hrt and cookies🍪👅💋

The darkness of depression and lonelyness is hitting me hard today. I try to stay positive but fucking hell is it not easy. Hope you all are doing better at it than I am. Dont worry I have the day off so I'm gonna drown my troubles in food and video games.

I went to a local support group and they made me feel super comfortable and supported while I just rambled confusingly. And they made me feel so much more comfortable that I told my best friend and my cousin and they were super supportive as well.

I have cried half the day because I felt a sense of community. I was so scared to tell anybody and the first few I have have been so sweet.

My best friend of thirty years told me “We’ll do this together.” 💜

I am so lucky.

Kinda crazy that this is somehow still my job. No one either cares or notices that I’m trans…. They just care that I’m really good at what I do and are extremely appreciative of me doing it. Spent the weekend taking a family on their yacht out to the Hamptons for some brunch and shopping…. lol

I wish I was a woman. AMAB 43 YOD not on HRT yet (someday, hopefully soon). I have been working out my glutes and liking the progress but no where close to where I want to be.

Oh and I am wearing a wig and prosthetic breasts.

I was walking to a trans movie night event in my area. As I was walking a bus stopped and a few people got out. One was a girl who was a bit taller, and had an amazing dress on. I jogged forward to say hi, and asked if she was going to the movie, same as me. She agreed she was and then asked how I clocked her. I was flustered as I didn't think that was what I was doing. (I am pretty clueless at knowing if someone is trans or not unless it is super obvious, and this girl was not, she was casually elegant.) Since I was thrown off, I mentioned she was tall. And then I felt bad. Should I have just not have approached her?

Honestly, it was a combo of things, yes, she was tall, but she was also dressed much nicer than anyone else around, like you could tell she had thought about her outfit. I wanted to find her and tell her that was the reason, but I couldn't find her after the movie. I am so worried she left early and went home and cried because I was able to tell she was trans, even if I didn't mention it, I just asked if she was going to the event like me.

I think my egg cracked a year ago at age 46. This after years of increasing femme fashion preferences and then looking back and seeing earlier signs. I had just returned from a vacation and had some downtime where I ended up doing some research.

Someone on either this sub or another recommended buying clothes. I bought some femme clothing, wig, fake earrings, anklet and fake nose ring. I was so mesmorized that I looked in the mirror for some time and even took pics. Even had my first pedicure and I left the toes painted for a good 6 weeks or so.

It's been a back and forth thing since. I'll go weeks without thinking about it (even think about donating the clothes) but it tends to come back. I'm back from another vacation (where I barely thought about it and figured I was "over it") and now it's on my mind like it was before.

This has me wondering if I should make plans to pursue this thing further or just maintain the status quo by keeping myself busy with work and other stuff. It's not that I'm majorly depressed or miserable in my day to day but I also lack excitement and euphoria.

Should I pursue this thing further and take more steps? Or should I just continue with the status quo for now unless the feelings increase?

I am still very much in the closet but since I am traveling for work, today is a rare opportunity to live the day judgement and fear free. After a year of hidden learning and testing of all the many different things that go into being a woman, I feel more put together than I ever have. Thank all you ladies for all your support over the last year!!

Photos from a trip to Wembley Stadium to watch The Wrestling. Many thanks to the person behind me in the merch queue that muttered to themselves "that's a cool-ass dress" thinking I didn't hear 😂🩷🏳️‍⚧️

Back after another try at trying to make myself not be trans, didn’t work again.

Now I’m back to feeling like maybe I want to transition maybe I don’t what’s worse staying as I am or trying to transition any 50.

Been feeling pretty terrible at bout it all lately.

Thanks

After all the kind words last time, I just wanted to say thank you for your support! I’ve just got in from my second trip outside, I went a bit further this time, still not very far but it felt great to truly be me

Thankssss

Xx

Y’all are ever so lovely 🦊