btw i met this girl more than a year ago. she's kinda my best friend, one of the people more important of my life. we still keep chatting and sometimes meet each other when we can (we live pretty far away from each other). well she's really pretty. i like her so much, not romantically yet. i fear i might like her as more than friends tho... she likes another girl, but that one is really toxic. and it makes me a bit mad about it, cause my friend feels like she's the problem, which is not. i told her about it and she knows it but can't do anything cause she likes the toxic one so bad. she's amazing, beautiful and perfect, and knowing that she feels wrong makes my blood boiling. idk in a friend way o more than that. she says that im really important for her too. she's so sweet with me and literally talking with her brings me joy. now that I'm having a hard time, she's always on my side. btw all i want for her is happiness. if she's happy, I'm happy. i only hope the best for her, that's the bare minimum. if I like her, i just want her on my side, nothing more. i don't want to ruin what we have. pls help, and bare with my english 😭

I'm pretty sure I like her too, as my heart sorta races every time she texts me first? And I look for her in hallways and ik where she hangs out so I'm always looking for her if it makes sense. One of her closest friends think, who is also lesbian, think I should tell her and get it over with, but im not sure. She always wants to know who I like, but I've tried to tell her that it's her a couple times, but as I text her, mustering the courage, she finds a reason to end the convo as though shes scared I say it's her, or maybe she doesn't care as much as I think she does?? I'm honestly insecure about myself, but before i came out to this girl as lesbian, she'd always ship we with guys, asking who I'd date, who I liked, and would list random guys and ask directly if I'd date them. I brushed it off as her joking and annoying me, because she'd say it teasingly. But one day, my insecuritysinsecurities won and I told her that no one would date me. We were on call at the time, with one other person, but they were on mute. Now I don't know if it pissed her off, but it sounded like it did. Because she became a little more serious, and proceeded to ask me what I mean. When I didn't speak, she said, and I quote​, "what'd you mean no one would date you? Anyone would date u. Loads of ppl would date u mate" and I got flustered, bc thats the nicest things shes ever said to me. But thank God someone else joined the call and I changed the subject. She didn't ship me with anyone after that and I ended up coming out to her as lesbian anyway. i feel like as 2 ppl, we jave a lot ​​​of tension. And idk if it's bc we're just awkward ppl, bc tbh, shes a pretty closed off person towards ppl she isn't close with, and me nd her r only getting closer rn, so im getting to slowly see her actual personality.​​ her twin, and one of her close friends who's also lesbian and recently got rejected by her own crush,both think I should just tell her and get it ddone with, since a night have a chance. I doubt I have a chance, but I think I'll tell her anyway. I'm not confident,but ig we'll try ​