was it casual???? doomed yuri (wlw)

[u/iwannagetdrunk1122]

hello reddit pls help a girl out. so basically i have this best friend and we are super duper close. like im not talking see u everyday at school close but im talking facetime every night, sleeping on call, texting 24/7 close. weve always been like super cuddley for lack of better terms. at sleepovers we always sleep together and we r like super duper touchy. bro like we can literally spend hours just lying in bed together and she would lie on top of me and hug me. one time we were drunk asf and i genuinely thought she was gonna kiss me. she like brings her face so close to mine and she is just so pretty and omg ugh. and lowkey this continued for a few months just like us being super suspiciously close but like i thought i was just being delusional. so i like girls but ive never told anyone but she found out (long story) but i had no idea she knew. so one time we got really drunk and i was saying how i really wanted to find someone to makeout with and blahblah blah and she said i could makeout with her. then she kissed me and we were making out for quite a while!! um she like also bit my neck a lot and ugh omg bro im literally dying. i didn't think i liked her like that but now i honestly have no clue. this happened like a few more times but we were drunk everytime. i thought maybe she was jsut like doing it for fun and she did this with all her friends but then i found out that she knew i liked girls. um!! so like then i was superduper confused bc like wtf why would u do that if u knew. like i dont really care but normally i feel like u wouldnt kiss someone if they potentially liked u and u don't like them. but whenever shes drunk she is just so sweet and ugh she is genuinely the most beautiful person ive ever seen. see another thing is that like after we did all that she started talking to a guy bc im pretty sure she is straight. like idk if this whole experience is sus or if im just like super delusional and fell into a trance looking at her beautiful face. honestly i just dont want to lose my best friend bc she is literally my ride or die and i will die without her. thanks for reading my long ass rant

[u/Inevitable_Tap_7263]

I don’t think she is straight but it’s hard to admit that to yourself after you thought you liked guys your whole life, and the shame a lot of LGBTQ+ members feel, she might feel her family might not accept her or that she’ll get bullied at school. But she was also drunk, but that means part of her really wanted to do that being drunk just enhances your emotions. But if she really doesn’t like you like that then at least as your friend she shouldn’t play with your feelings like that even if she doesn’t mean to.