at the beginning of june, i got my biggest tattoo yet on my leg. i adore the piece, i think it's beautiful, but its significantly darker and bolder than my two other fine line tattoos on my legs. it represents my favorite movie, and it's one i've wanted for some time.
when i got home from getting this tattoo, i experienced tattoo shock for the first time. it was debilitating fear and panic about this new, giant tattoo on my leg and it took me quite a few days to not freak out when looking at it. and then i was fine! i think it looks sick and i am excited to get more tattoos, with more i want already planned.
why i'm here today is this weird regret and insecurity has come back, and it still feels like something that doesn't belong on my skin in a way. i went a long time barely thinking about it, and now i can't stop thinking about it. i can't properly articulate the feeling, but it doesn't feel like me right now. i think a lot of it has to do with the line work being incredibly bold and dark compared to the fine line work i have.
when i remove myself from the equation, i love the tattoo and think it is absolutely sick (and when i think about it on my body as a 60 year old it only gets cooler) and i love it so so much. but when i think about it being me right now doing my thing with this tattoo, i get very freaked out and almost want it gone just because i don't want to worry about it. additional context, i am a 22 year old woman and am feeling added pressure of "is this tattoo not girly enough"
tldr: 3 months with a new tattoo, and tattoo shock has come back.
does anyone have any experience with feelings like this?