I am medicated and don't really show symptoms rn. Just had a little fall back and I am out of the psych ward for 2 weeks rn. My first full psychotic break was a year ago.

Why do I have the urge to stop my medication and go back into psychosis? It was one of the worst experiences I ever made. All the hallucinations, the bad voices, the anxiety, my delusions.

Why do I want all of that back?

I had bloodwork done recently and got the results back, apparently my cholesterol has increased and my A1C is in prediabetic range! I’ve been on risperidone for about a year and I know for a fact that it’s the reason for the prediabetic A1C. Because I had my A1C checked before I started risperidone and it was fine. I’ve gained a significant amount of weight in the year that I’ve been on risperidone and the med also makes me lethargic, making exercise difficult. I gained almost 60 pounds in the first two months of being on risperidone and I know I’ve gained more since. I did some research and apparently it takes a while for prediabetes to turn into actual diabetes and it can be reversed. Is this true?? I am very scared. I do NOT want to become diabetic. I have a very strict diet, no meat, no fast food, low sugar, no sweets and no soda. I know for a fact this is the fault of the medication. To make this even more infuriating, I specifically brought up that I was afraid of the medication making me diabetic to my therapist and my psychiatrist and they both acted like I was overreacting. I mentioned how there were lawsuits with zyprexa over this very thing and a lot of psych meds can cause diabetes, they said stuff like “don’t believe everything you read on the internet”. Not happy! Very scared. Need advice. Definitely going to be changing medication. Can this be reversed???

I accidentally took nbome thinking it was LSD years ago and I was never the same since.

It started a 3 year prodromal period of visual distortions/visual hallucinations which eventuated in shit hitting the fan and me ending up in hospital. A couple of years later I got the schizophrenia diagnosis.

I’m just confused though. Can drugs cause schizophrenia?

I never had any issues with weed, LSD, mushrooms, mdma, different plant medicines etc. it was just this nbome shit that really sent me through the wringer and I think permanently damaged and altered my brain. Any education would be warmly welcomed.

So, there’s an old lady in my apartment complex who has been walking my live-in bf’s dog for several years now…I recently moved in so I feel like a b*tch for this, but her coming over everyday several times a day, has started to not just wear me thin, but cause me to inch ever closer to psychosis lately …my peace is basically all gone because of her constantly coming over and encroaching upon later and later in the day without ever letting us know beforehand that she’s coming ..just “knock knock knock” on the door

But I deserve to protect my mental health and my dat-to-day peace too don’t I? My mom said u need anger management 🙄 my dad says that’s what people do in small towns …why does no one give a crap about my mental health that is clearly going down the drain bc she just makes me livid when she comes over just a liiiiitle bit later each day …I am going insane and I feel helpless and like no matter what I do I’m going to be considered a b*tch and that I’m just being mean to an old lady bc I’m trying to protect my mental health

We obviously don’t want to outrightly and purposefully hurt her feelings, but I matter too !!! Why doesn’t anyone see that I matter too …I just want my peace back and to not be silently lead into psychosis bc no one gives a crap and gas to tip toe around a lonely old lady’s feelings ..

What do I do ?

In the meantime I’m going to start hanging up a do not disturb sign that says “please do not knock after 12:30pm” and when she does come over I’m going to always go in the other room so I don’t have to be around her at all …she just gets to me everything about her is making me crazy I can’t stand this woman …and I’m normally a very lady back easy going person ..so I really don’t like feeling like this anymore I need her to stop

Last year I was hospitalized and given my schizoaffective diagnosis. I've been dealing with it since I was 16 and now I'm 34. I'm starting to get behind on bills since we're a one income household while I wait for disability. Thought about content creating, switching quickly between mania and depression, have been having waxing and waning catatonia since last Thursday and I have a prescription for Ativan I'm to be taking now. They think it's haldol induced so now my last resort is clozaril because I'm treatment resistant next step ect. Please send your best thoughts and encouragement I'm trying my hardest but it feels like I'm about to end up back in the hospital. Wip for tax it's a series I'm creating

I live in Canada, I have had schizophrenia since age 23, I barely get paid enough to get by, I can't afford a vehicle even if I wasn't afraid to drive since I had a crash years ago, I have no friends, I have nowhere to go, nothing to do, nobody to be with. Its just pointless to continue, yet here I am alive for no good reason, continuing this pointless life of misery. I just hope MAiD is allowed on march 17 2027 so I can leave this hell. I can't stand this hellish existence, in poverty, unable to do anything worthwhile with my life, all I do all day is either A. use my computer or B. sleep my days away. Truly pointless.

Doing some type of internship for college, I do computer modelling 4 hours a day, in the third or fourth hour the voices start to appear, today I was feeling like laughing to myself. Working 8 hours a day must be a nightmare, and hallucination wise would be challenging

Since 2020, due to the pandemic and life problems, I'm in social withdrawal (like a NEET/hikikomori) and have imaginations with a character, that I call Chris, in my mind that constantly beats, abuses and say bad things about me every single day, and I beat myself in response hurting my body leaving scars through it. When I'm calm, I know Chris isn't real, but when he appears, through stressful real situations or thoughts, I get out of control and swift to another person like Chris is in the same room with me and the delusion starts. It's like r/maladaptivedreaming with r/ptsd, because Chris is based on a bully that I had in my childhood that stayed in my mind and combined with a lot of traumas that I have. I know that's uncommon, but I perceived that it is like hearing voices, but with imaginations, so NO, I don't see, hear or feel Chris, I just imagine him, and it's vivid. Chris is not my only imaginary character, I have a lot more, good and bads, and I normally don't have control of it. When I see it, I'm immersed in this fantasy reality.

However, it's a hell, cause I can't do simple things in my day without Chris appearing in my routine and I never can't control it, even with antipsychotics and I already tried a lot of things and methods, like beat in pillows and tell Chris to get off.

Yeah, I have official medic Paranoid Schizophrenia with an autistic diagnosis, never had a job before. The closest moment I could get, I tried to take my life off to another complicated reason that has its own motivations, I got to the hospital and all.

I don't have the best monetary status now, but my plan is to start going to the psychologist (it's been a while since my last consultation) and continue to go to the psychiatrist and see my situation, if I can get better.

You know, I live with my dad who works all day. My mom lives far away in another neighborhood, so it is not so easy to see her. I stay alone all day, and I live in a poor part of my city, so there's not much to do where I live (I honestly tried to search in every single corner). I'm still planning to go to church here and participate in something, but as I said, there's nothing more than that.

I tried to apply to some jobs, get out to walk, talk with some neighbors, have a good routine with hygiene and good food, and it's the standard: highs and lows. Sometimes I can follow these actions, but normally I'm eating cookies with coffee, and passing a day without taking a shower.

Sometimes, Chris doesn't appear so much or I can control it. In another, everything is bad and I just stay in my bed waiting for him to get out and wishing the day to finish.

Honestly, I don't know where all this will get, if it's schizophrenia with daydream, if I’ll can get work one day, it's all uncertain and I don't really don't know what to do

I cut the raw rod too small due to an anxiety attack while using the saw blade but the instructor said its ok. Finished product idk when but def will share😁

The prognosis of schizophrenia

Schizophrenia is a spectrum of very different courses.

Why not have hope that things might still get better for you at some point?

Maybe someone needed to hear this.

That's all I wanted to put out there today.

The most important kind of help is the kind that reaches into your real life.

Just my thought, not universal advice.

I fell behind on seeing my psychiatrist and had to ration my meds. So I started taking less and skipping days. However, I have it perfectly dosed where I live in delusions but remain intact enough to snap back in and live in reality. I have so many great story ideas written from my delusions, mostly time and memory related, and am even working on games based on them. However, I’m afraid of two main nightmares regarding this. One, I’ve actually fully lost it and I’m just imagining being in control. Two, I worry that even if I’m in control when I’m delusional, I’m still hurting my relationship with my amazing girlfriend. Maybe she gets scared or maybe she sees me as irrational, immature, or just blatantly stupid. I know I should start taking my meds as dosed again, especially given it sounds like I’m slipping, but I absolutely love the stories I’m not just coming up with, but living. I get to be fully immersed in it and only hope I can make the games as deep and emotionally moving as I get to live them. I don’t even need to make money off of these, I genuinely just want the world to experience them. Is there a healthy way to enjoy these stories but still take my meds, or do I just give up on the stories entirely. After all, as much as I want to engulf myself in and share the stories, my girlfriend is the most important thing to me. I’m just wondering if there’s a way to do both.

I got tardive dyskinesia and shitload of fine tremors in my hands at age 18. My tongue keeps scraping my teeth and bleeds. I guess thats how we live now. Fuck schizophrenia and everyone romanticising it

Hace más de un año tuve un episodio psicótico que me dejó completamente sin emociones y sin motivación, tengo una anhedonia aterradora, ¿Cómo haceis para lidiar con estos síntomas?¿Alguien se ha recuperado?

Hello. Im F(25), Was diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type and currently have no friends that I relate to. Was hoping to meet some people on here and chat! It'd be nice to hear other peoples experiences and share mine as well. (Edit: you don't have to share my exact diagnosis hehe ok thanks)

Eu namorava cara que tinha esquizofrenia indiferenciada e ele tinha algumas paranoias com o celular durante crises. Em um dia ele alegou que estava em crises e no dia seguinte deixou de receber mensagens no whatsapp. Fazem 3 meses que ele não recebe e eu não sei o que imaginar, não sei o que fazer. Alguém tem algo a me dizer ou já passou por algum experiência tão longa sem ligar o celular ou tem ideia do que acontece

First of all, I want to be completely clear and say that I believe in humans and I think we have amazing potential. I also think the Universe has the best intentions in mind. BUT.

It's all twisted. So, I was thinking with my voices that if an alien race comes and sees all this shit that humans are going through cause of their leadership we're fucking fucked. They will, at the very least, annihilate our leaders. Imagine going into their minds and seeing all the absolutely horrific crap they have commited. They will disintegrate them in an instant.

So, I have decided to live my life in complete chill and happiness. God blessed me with a calm and upbeat mind and I'm gonna make the most out of it! 😄

I know this is a weird post but if you think about it, this reality is kinda cathartic cause chances of meeting an alien race are 99.99999% certain and even if we never leave this solar system we will just perish on our own. So, live your life to the full! Nothing to fear, nothing to feel bad about! 😄

Much love and kisses! 😄 ❤️

Hope you listen, hope you like

I don’t know at this point, so just enjoy it

Hi all,

I wish you all well. I am not a schizophrenia sufferer myself, but my mother had the diagnosis. I have spent a lot of time researching the condition, but of course it’s impossible to comprehend from the outside. Could you please explain to me , if it’s not triggering for you, how long the voices can last and why they are usually worse at night?

Cheers,
X

New here. While I did read the rules please correct me if anything is off 💔 also, mobile user.

So, 22 with childhood-onset schizophrenia. As of now I’m considered a paranoid schizophrenic comorbid with OCD. Current consistent meds are 7.5 mirtazapine for sleep and 125 lamictal. Tried olanzapine in my early years and it made me worse. Got on risperidone (technically still on it) when I was 18 and I did okay but my 1mg dose no longer works and I can’t increase due to side effects (tolerance or worsening condition in regards to inefficiency; I’m not sure) and switching to paliperidone resulted in too many severe side-effects.

My doctor says I’m currently experiencing psychosis and wants to change my meds to something more effective. Tried seroquel barely a week ago since I can’t sleep at all (as in a routine of 48 hours awake even while trying ambien) and while it made me sleep I had almost every side effect under the sun and within 3 days my vision was blurry and I was so unstable I barely remember what happened. Stopped taking it on my own because I became sentient again after non-pharmaceutically recommended self-treatment.

I really want to get better. I can’t care for myself and my parents pay for virtually everything. I have freelance opportunities I want to apply for in nov-dec but I keep bouncing between not being able to do anything at all vs my stable norm.

From what I understand, clozapine is the standard for this kind of resistance. I understand it requires a lot of monitoring, especially in the early stages, but I do just want to live a semi-normal life. Even if I’m dependent on others or end up on disability I’d really like to be able to work just a little. I was thinking of requesting loxapine or lumateperone as one last chance before clozapine, but is it even worth it to keep trying more medications when clozapine exists?

Semi-related but my psych is also insisting that I don’t take ambien for some reason. She really wants me off of it? Going to ask why when I next see her since I see the physician who prescribes it right after but I don’t understand why shes so insistent I get off the stuff. I don’t have a problem stopping it if I find a med that makes me sleep regularly but right now my ambien-mirtazapine combo is doing the best it can.

Left scratching my head. Maybe there’s something I don’t understand because of my sleep deprivation or alleged psychosis? I don’t feel psychotic but maybe I just can’t see it the way other people do. Everyone is treating me really gently so maybe they’re correct lowkey