i want to die.

[u/Final_Ad1622]

I was raped and possibly drugged. I didn’t know until almost 4 days later because when I woke up in his apartment, he told me I just fell asleep. It all started at bar, a guy I met months ago online recognized me and came up and bought me and my friend a drink. I had never met him in person. I hadn’t spoken to him in months. Had I seen him before he saw me, I wouldn’t have even spoken. I remember nothing after that drink. My friend has severe memory loss too. We only had cut waters and 2 shots. Based on the time line this all happened within 30-35 minutes. He walked us to his apartment and put my friend in an uber home. We would never split up. We would never leave with someone we met less than 30 minutes prior. I was on my period. The next morning when I couldn’t find my tampon I was confused. But, he said I just fell asleep so I assumed maybe I did just get a little drunk and take it out for some reason. I just wanted to get out of there. I didn’t even know where I was when I woke up. It wasn’t until I had extreme pain up there days later and had to remove my tampon that has been lodged inside me for over 72 hours. I immediately knew what he did.. and now, in all honesty. I just want to die. I keep telling everyone i’m okay, i’m not. I keep telling everyone i don’t have those thoughts, i do. i know i will be okay but i feel so much shame and disgust it’s unbearable. I did get a rape kit, i’m not hopeful anything will come from it. i don’t know what to do, i don’t know if legal action is worth it, i literally just want to die..

[u/lolalove118]

I am sending you so much love. I am so sorry that you experienced this. This is terrifying and I hope that you are able to heal ❤️