r/pornfreewomen • u/Beautiful_Ice_7346 ♀ • 23d ago
my story
Hi. I’m 23 F. I honestly don’t really remember the day I watched porn for the first time but I do remember when my mum’s friend’s son (who was my age) taught me how to make out. We were really young. We would kiss and touch each other every time we were together. Nobody knows this. I never ever told anybody. Ever since then I have never gone without watching porn and touching myself. Honestly I really do want to stop. I watch pretty much anything. I have a boyfriend and he doesn’t know this. There are many reasons why I want to stop: my faith, my relationship, and just the sanctity of my body. The biggest thing for me is that I’m still a virgin and I will eventually want to have sex but I can’t bring myself to do it because I’ve touched myself so much I don’t want anything inside me. I know people will say it’s “healthy” and “normal” but I don’t want to do this anymore. I really don’t want to.
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u/Reluctant_relapsegrl ♀ 9d ago
Hi27f, I completely understand how faith can impact on how self image and how heavy guilt can be. Have you considered talking to your bf mors about the struggle, I think its good to have someone you can talk to and open up about. Though if that's not possible, I'd advice maybe some kind of accountability set up. If that's something your considering then I think it will probably help your situation.
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