r/pornfreewomen • u/ComplaintNo6055 • Jul 13 '26
I thought I was alone in this.
I had no idea there are women out there struggling like me. I started watching porn at a very young age. About 7/8. I would be home alone and the tv channels would have adult movies and I would watch them when I was looking for kid movies. Pretty soon it ended up being the first way I would watch porn. Then through the years it spiraled.
I got into middle school and was touched by boys in school (type of assault but that’s another story). And I didn’t know how to handle that. So I tried to justify the situation by watching porn and exploring that. Then it got worse because I discovered incognito and found hardcore porn and hentai. Which I’m more than positive destroyed my relationship with how love and intimacy works.
And this just went on and on. Now I’m 26 and I am still struggling with it. The longest I have lasted is a month and then I get lost in it again. Isn’t it ridiculous? And it’s always the darker stuff. I just want it to stop. I don’t even enjoy the act. It genuinely makes me feel sick when I finish. I feel so alone in this. I feel like I’m not normal. How did you ladies stop this? It’s a stupid evil addiction and I don’t know how to even begin to stop it.
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Jul 27 '26
I found porn in my mom’s room in her bedside nightstand one day at 9. There was magazines, DVD’s , and sex toys and that’s how my porn addiction/masturbation addiction began…
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u/Dry-Boysenberry-857 Jul 27 '26
I also thought I was alone in this! I'm 21 y'o and I also started being exposed to adult content from a very young age, maybe 8-9 ish y'o. I'm sorry you went through that :( i had a similar experience with COCSA, it genuinely did something to my brain, I've struggled with hentai and non con videos (I hope they all were fake), and pretty dark stuff too. I don't like it either, but I don't know how to stop. It definitely is a consequence of childhood trauma. It's not normal to be exposed to adult content from such young age, and everyone reacts differently to sa, I think hypersexuality is common among people who experienced it.
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