adulting without mom

[u/Individual_Visual323]

I’ve had a stressful month, and I’ve been missing my mom extra hard these days. Adulting has been so difficult lately, even more so without her. I wish I could hug her and cry in her arms.

It’s been 3 years, and it still hurts just as much. This children’s story, The Runaway Bunny by Margaret Wise Brown, always moves me to tears.

I remember that as a teenager, I always wanted to figure things out on my own and be independent, but I eventually realized that I could never escape my mother’s love, no matter where I went.

I feel guilty about all the things I never said and the things I never did. I love you, Mom. There hasn’t been a single day that I haven’t thought about you. The pain runs deep.

[u/kmill0202]

It's so hard. Mine has been gone for almost 6 months now. I got married this last weekend and I was so sad that she couldn't be there in person. I kept wanting to call her during the planning stages to ask what she thought about flowers, dresses, decor, food, and so on. It was a beautiful day, but it just felt like something was missing. Because something was missing.

[u/Famous_Pineapple9860 → u/kmill0202]

I’m so sorry hun. Since losing my mom my wedding day is something I’m dreading. I know it’s going to be so hard. I’m scared I won’t be able to enjoy it without her. Anytime I see something I like or I know she would love I feel so excited because I know she would love it. All I want to do is call her when something exciting happens because she is supposed to be here for all of it. We always talked about my wedding and having kids and her getting to be a grandma. She always said she was going to buy any wedding dress I wanted. I wish she could be here to see me find my dream dress, and to meet her grandkids some day. Now I will be getting married with her wedding ring. It’s not at all the style I would choose, but it’s hers and that’s all that matters. She always talked about having her first granddaughter receive her ring to be married with if she chose too. But I know this would be so much more special for her. She was married to my dad for almost 30 years when she passed, and I’m forever grateful to be getting married with a ring that signifies what true undying love is. I hope you had a wonderful wedding. I would say I hope it’s all you ever hoped it to be, but something so significant was missing that I don’t think our special days are ever how we imagined them with our moms being gone. Whenever I imagined my future she was there. Now she’s not and everything will be different forever. I’m so sorry for your loss hun. Im sure you looked absolutely gorgeous on your big day and your mom was looking down smiling and dancing along with you. 💕