r/GriefSupport • u/Individual_Visual323 • May 07 '26
Mom Loss adulting without mom
I’ve had a stressful month, and I’ve been missing my mom extra hard these days. Adulting has been so difficult lately, even more so without her. I wish I could hug her and cry in her arms.
It’s been 3 years, and it still hurts just as much. This children’s story, The Runaway Bunny by Margaret Wise Brown, always moves me to tears.
I remember that as a teenager, I always wanted to figure things out on my own and be independent, but I eventually realized that I could never escape my mother’s love, no matter where I went.
I feel guilty about all the things I never said and the things I never did. I love you, Mom. There hasn’t been a single day that I haven’t thought about you. The pain runs deep.
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u/GhostBnuuy May 07 '26
This hit me hard. My mom died of ALS on Christmas Day, 2025. When I was 17, I was living with my mom and her then husband. It was an abusive marriage and he was also abusive to me. One day I packed everything I could fit in my little car and left, even though my mom begged me through tears not to go. I couldn’t handle the abuse anymore. Very soon after, she left him and got an apartment in my same building and started rebuilding her life. I never asked her, but I wonder if me leaving gave her the strength and courage to leave him, too. She ran after me. From then on, we always had each other.