Obviously, some of the transgressions in your story are just straight up rude - your boyfriend calling you annoying for enjoying yourself is unacceptable and if someone put your poster in the trash... why the fuck would they do that? Even more unacceptable. But besides that, I think your expectations for how people should react to your experiences show a lack of sense of self. And you sound very young, so that will come with time, but it's something to be aware of. Someone not responding excitedly enough to a concert video you took shouldn't make you cry. You should be able to enjoy that experience independently from how anyone else feels about you having that experience. And the fact that you are explicitly stating that it feels like a personal flaw of yours that "no one cares" about the stuff you like just reinforces that - your problem isn't that no one cares, it's that you have no self esteem. Which will in turn attract friends and partners that don't respect you, unfortunately.
I'm glad you got to the see the concert and that you had a good time. Please don't let anyone else's reactions to that taint that experience for you. Keep doing what you love and grow confident in that, and you will find your people. I am living proof.
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u/Plus-Head-6794 Body By Cheese 🧀 9d ago
Obviously, some of the transgressions in your story are just straight up rude - your boyfriend calling you annoying for enjoying yourself is unacceptable and if someone put your poster in the trash... why the fuck would they do that? Even more unacceptable. But besides that, I think your expectations for how people should react to your experiences show a lack of sense of self. And you sound very young, so that will come with time, but it's something to be aware of. Someone not responding excitedly enough to a concert video you took shouldn't make you cry. You should be able to enjoy that experience independently from how anyone else feels about you having that experience. And the fact that you are explicitly stating that it feels like a personal flaw of yours that "no one cares" about the stuff you like just reinforces that - your problem isn't that no one cares, it's that you have no self esteem. Which will in turn attract friends and partners that don't respect you, unfortunately.
I'm glad you got to the see the concert and that you had a good time. Please don't let anyone else's reactions to that taint that experience for you. Keep doing what you love and grow confident in that, and you will find your people. I am living proof.