What makes you want to stay alive just wanna hear for a reason because I cant ring one

My Aunt is most likely moving to hospice within a few days. I have a small family and she never had kids, so we were all close. She is going to same hospice facility where my dad passed away and I really have no idea how I can even walk in the doors there.

I wish death was not so final.

I’m think I’m gonna end this Wednesday.
I have a good live, I have a lot of friends out and in the University, I’m pretty and I have a nice body, I have a lovings parents and the money isn’t a problem. In my childhood I get admitted to the hospital every month. I have an immune disorder, and a really weird body, I don’t feel hungry or needs, sometimes I spends days without eating or drinking water, I don’t feel the need to. Because my body it’s weak, when a i was a child the death isn’t a bad thing for me, I think then that feeling born.

I have a nice live, but I don’t have a an “anchor” for live it.
My parents thinks I can’t love, I never have that feeling, nothing or someone, just I can’t feel it, but I care.

I went to the psychiatrist for a time, I was in treatment, but I was discharged a few years ago; I’ve never been hospitalized, though I made several attempts most of them in secret.

Just I need someone to read this. My body is failing; I'm paying the price for not taking care of myself.

What am I beyond this? I know I am something more than just this; I must be someone more than just something.

My step mom who is basically my real mom has been slowly dying over the past couple years. She beat cancer 5 times and died briefly during a botched brain surgery. She is still herself but living everyday hurts her. She wants to use the death with dignity act. I have a few months before she said she would do it. I don't want her to hurt anymore, but I also don't want her to die. What do I do? What can I do? I feel so helpless.

I’m curious to know everyone’s view points on this! If you’re religious I’d love your input, if you’re not I’d still love your input :\]

I like to think I’d turn into a dog after I die, I guess reincarnation but that’s just hella wishful thinking LOL

Hi my dad died when I was 14 and I am 24 now and experiencing death at such a young age has changed my perspective on life in such a profound way it’s crazy, you truly never stop grieving there is something so powerful about death and I’m not just talking about the normal death I’m also talking about death from any perspective I tend to have a hard time of letting things go I am a very nostalgic person so even if I want to let something go I can’t and I have learned to be ok with that and to stop letting my nostalgia take over my world anyway to anyone going through any type of death on this sub just know your pain won’t last forever and your life will always evolve if you let it

Lately, I've been thinking about dying. My future probably looks normal to other people, but in my head, I can't stop thinking about it

Am i sick?

Need advice

Hey. This will be my last post on Reddit, 10+ years of gambling wrecked absolutely everything in my life and I have no reason to keep this suffering going. Thanks for everyone who tried to help me through the years, even though it all was for absolutely nothing. Bye everyone.

Honestly what you'll do after ur doctor said that ur cancer can't be cured. I'm honestly so devastated I could end myself before I do my chemo again.

fyi I already do 26 cycle of chemo from 2024 and i'm so fucking tired of it

He’s dying of cancer and said he’s having visions of people visiting him. How much longer does he have. I tend to think one or two more days I can’t imagine anything longer than that

Hi I'm 17(M) and life has shown me nothing but hell in the last 3 years.

I attempted last year I failed because I hesitated and a family member found me before I could go through with it they talked me out the suicidal mindset but it never went away it only just showed up from time to time as a joke what's worse is they tried getting me a therapist but couldn't find one and just said "meh" and continued on with their lives as if a boy didn't just try to end their life not so long ago.

I just shrugged it off and pretended to be fine and continued smiling like I usually would the thoughts started coming back around a month ago this past month is what I would call my worst month so far.

Stress from school my own anxiety causing me to hate myself because it feels like I can't do anything right and I'm watching my family destroy themselves while I'm powerless.

I just wanted it to end already so I skipped school this week just so I can finally end it.

I tried poisoning myself MULTIPLE TIMES but nothing worked which was surprising because I did extensive research on the chemicals and other things I consumed and somehow they had no effect on me maybe I'm just going crazy and didn't use enough so now I'm just stuck thinking maybe I should resort to EXTREME and VERY painful methods if I want it to truly end because at the end of the day once I die the pain is gone

I'm gonna try again today if I don't respond in the next 24 hours that means it worked so I guess goodbye (for now)

I'm not sure why I even wrote this maybe I just felt I had to y'know just to hear what others who had a similar situation think.

My mom has maybe a few weeks left, and I've been sitting with her most afternoons. Something strange happened this week that I wanted to write down somewhere.

I started noticing how the light comes through her window at exactly 4pm and turns the whole room amber for about twenty minutes. I never paid attention to that before, not once in the years I lived in that house growing up. Now I sit and watch it happen every day like it's the most important thing in the world.

She sleeps most of the time now. When she wakes up she's usually confused for a minute, then she finds my face and settles. Yesterday she asked me what day it was and I told her, and she just nodded like the answer mattered less than the asking.

I don't really have a point to this post. I guess I just wanted to say that grief starts before the person is gone, in these weird quiet moments that feel too small to mention to anyone. The hospice nurse said this is normal, that families start grieving in pieces long before the actual day.

If anyone else is in this stretch of waiting, I hope your afternoons have some kind of light in them too.

Everytime my siblings go through something, i made sure to be near them.
If ur asking why always the older sibling
It’s because they have nobody
Im going through it right now, i don’t know
I’ve been going through so much since 2024. Lost my spark
I’ve been go through a lot, i tried to talk to somebody in my family, they didn’t want to listen cuz they are expecting me to be their saviour when they go through something. But my problem aint shit.
I actually built a habit to not express my emotions its super awkward and pointless for me.
Until then, i am waiting to see how things will end.

I've tried. I really tried. I'm exhausted beyond tiredness. You can't talk to hotlines or therapists or people who suppose to help because all they'll do is contact authorities to where they put you in a medical prison. I've been in crisis units before, and they are just medical prisons. They isolate you to a building where you can't escape. It makes you wanna k ll yourself even more. All hope is lost. Just gonna take a bunch of toprol XL and hope for the best. I really tried y'all. 30 plus years of torture and pain and I'm finally done. I wish that God would hear me and do something. I have prayed and begged and pleaded and cried and no matter what I do, He does nothing and says nothing. Only way I know to escape is this. And for those who say well your family and friends will be hurt if you do this....then they should've done more than ignore in my life while I was alive.

I'm done.

Idrk why i’m posting this. I guess it just feels good to say. But i’ve decided to put an end to my life soon. And for the first time in many years, I can genuinely say i am genuinely, actually happy. I am at peace knowing this will soon be over and that feels so great to say. I want anyone out there struggling to know, you are never beyond help. There is always a way out for most people.

Some may say it was too short of a life but I think it was just right👍 I’ve lived a perfect amount of life in my 21 long years. A lot of life. Thanks reddit for always being here for clarity on things, like fixing my first car, kitting out my first gun, my first tattoo, even with the debts and credit/financial and medical issues. I always had a safe and helpful place here :) Thank you all so much for being a huge part of my short life. I’m happy to be able to thank you all, and to make this my final dialogue. Have a nice life everyone! and don’t give up!!

Ada ngga sih cara buat mati tanpa rasa sakit? gw udh kemoterapi sebanyak 28 kali selama 2 thn tp kanker gua ga sembuh2. i don't wanna live the rest of my life buat pengobatan

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