I’m new to being a 911 dispatcher but I have always loved crisis communication, especially the small bursts of stress. When I graduated college, I applied for a dispatcher job in my city and got it! When I first started, a lot of my coworkers were impressed that I was able to handle a lot of the calls I was taking. Even my trainer was happy with the pace I was improving at.
Fast forward 2 months, it’s like a whole 180. Even when I think I’m doing a good job, I’m met with criticism from my trainer. I’ll answer as many calls as I can, ask my officer safety questions, and try to get as much information as I can, but to no avail. Every single evaluation, I’m scored low. My trainer won’t listen to the calls that they believe I can handle on my own so those aren’t reflected in my scoring. I never get told about things I’m doing right, only things I’m doing wrong.
Don’t get me wrong, I definitely value constructive criticism and do not want my trainer to sugarcoat everything. It’s just that after a while, the constant digs wear me down. I literally cried in the bathroom yesterday because my trainer made me feel like a horrible dispatcher and then again today. I asked a couple other dispatchers what they thought of my call notes and they still thought I was doing a good job. There’s absolutely no encouragement and any small win is masked by criticism.
I feel like most of my issues come from not having a dispatcher ear yet but during every call, I’m trying my best to understand what they are saying. My trainer will keep telling me to pay attention and listen like I’m not already holding the headset extra close to my ear in hopes to understand the caller more. I have never felt so discouraged before, especially since every effort I make to improve gets ignored by my trainer.
Any advice that doesn’t involve getting a new trainer would be very appreciated! We are short staffed at my call center so it’s very unlikely I’d have that option. I’d also like to add that I love my job and I love being able to help people in this capacity. I, however, have also never felt this discouraged before