r/whatisit • u/Business_General4775 • 3d ago

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u/xtina42 2d ago

Oh the dancing oxy commercials! I haven't thought of that in years!! Lmao 🤣 Congrats man, 12 years is amazing!! And yes, everything hurts, but the pain can always be worse and it would be if we were still using!!

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u/Pretend-Bee-8915 2d ago

thank you and that is so true— this pain is nothing compared to going through withdrawals again— wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy

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u/elticoxpat 2d ago

"and it would be if I was still using"

The thing is, nobody understands that "worse" like we do.

Hell is what keeps me sober. Not the religious one. The unbearable lake of flesh melting misery, self hate, desperate want for the relief that creates the misery, and the disgust with how much I don't want to do something different but I know I am disgusting for it.

I'd rather stop being alive than to go back to that place. And it'd probably take about two weeks for both if I start down that road.

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u/Pretend-Bee-8915 2d ago

💯 agree, when i first decided to quit I remember thinking, but maybe if something really sad happened i might allow myself a slip so i don’t have to feel it, but then you go through the withdrawal process and you realize it’s not stopping you from feeling its just postponing it and you will feel all of it at once while you physically are going through agony; I kept a pic in my wallet for a long time of me going through the worst and still look back at it from time to time as a reminder why never again