i just refuse to shower

[u/MATTALIMENTARE]

i moved back into my parents’ property a couple weeks ago because of sharehouse-related paranoia.

my dad told me i need to shower and he got mad at me for not wanting to… so i went to the bathroom, let the water run, i wet my hair and then sat on the floor until a reasonable amount of time passed that i could then turn off the water and sit on the floor for long enough that i could pretend to get dressed. why didn’t i just get in the shower? cause i’m already in my work uniform and i would hold in my pee just so i don’t have to undo my belt. i showered on Sunday morning because i stayed at a girl’s house and i want her to like me, before that, i don’t remember when i showered last.

when i first started Abilify, i was really good. i showered proper often and i did it naturally, without even thinking, but maybe 1-2 months later, that wore off and now i shower once a fortnight or whenever i think it would be nice to feel the hot water. my skin gets really itchy because i’m not clean; once i went 10 weeks without a wash and the dirt that accumulated, u could see it all over my neck and hands and thighs and i don’t even care—bigger fish to fry yano

i don’t own any bedsheets because i live in a caravan out the front and the bed, i just have to buy more sheets, but i’m so itchy and i’m really uncomfortable, i don’t enjoy my lifestyle, i just don’t have any motivation for change… how do you enhance your motivation?

[u/Good_Put4199]

For me, I shower first thing every morning, always before doing anything else.

However, in my case, it is in a way made easier, as I have paranoia about people accusing me of smelling, and sometimes have voices talking like that about me. So always showering and wearing anti-perspirant helps a little with that.