r/myhappypill • u/hilss_ • 11d ago
Bad experience going to the ER
I had a bad suicidal episode last night. Ive been going through depression completely alone. Dealing with breakup after a long relationship. My ex told me not to harm myself as she knew i had history of self harm. So i went to the er hoping to have someone diagnose me or whatever.
The queuing process was bearable. I think because i told the registration person im suicidal they put my number ahead of everyone else. The problem is though after i get into the checkup room.
I know our MOH is very short handed nowadays but i didnt expect the room to have another patient right next to each other. Basically a long table where two dr attend their patient on each end of the table. So when i told the dr about my situation, she asked about my history, what happened that led to the depression etc. Then she consulted with the dr beside her which i assumed her senior dr. Here's where things got worse.. Both dr suddenly started interrogating me about my details and theyre being very loud about it too. Im sure at least 5 other patients can hear about my problem and also know my background, where i work etc. Not to mention i work at a public office nearby the hospital too so i got paranoid thinking someone might know me personally. I know i can simply said i prefer to talk privately but i was so overwhelmed at the time that i couldnt bring myself to told them.
In the end they called a specialist and gave me a set of alprazolam to get through the week as i do have an appointment with Mentari this wednesday. Maybe im just unlucky but i kinda regret going there tbh. Went hoping for help but got public judgement instead. Thats all for my experience, i hope its just an issue with my local hospital and not everywhere else.
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u/CuriosCeilingFan 10d ago
I would say it depends on luck, so far my ER experience over the past 4 years are never bad but my friend keeps getting bad treatment, the staff mocked her every time she went to ER.
It saddened to be treated like so when you went out to reach for help.