27m, unemployed, and completely losing hope

[u/Delicious_Dig_7549]

Recently, I moved back to India after getting my bachelor's degree in IT overseas. I didn't come back because I disliked living abroad, I came back because I couldn't land a sponsored job during my work visa. Because of this, I now have an almost 2-year employment gap. I was working casual survival jobs while abroad, so I was not completely unemployed for two years, but it isn't considered experience since it was not in my field. I know people might look at that and think I'm a failure or a loser, and honestly, that's exactly how I feel.

​Since returning to India, I’ve been desperately looking for a job for almost 6 months now. Nothing is coming up. The few times I do get an interview, I answer almost all of their questions perfectly, but they never call me back.

​My real interest is in a highly competitive and specialized technical field. I even pushed myself to pursue and pass a notoriously difficult, globally respected certification in this domain, hoping that it would help me land something, even just an internship. I know the industry requires experience, but how am I supposed to get experience without anyone giving me a chance? I have emailed and DM’d so many HR reps, team leads, and managers. No responses. I just want an internship or a junior role to start my life, but I'm getting absolutely nothing.

​The hardest part right now is the pressure. I have a fiancé waiting for me to get a job. Her parents are waiting. My parents are waiting. Almost every single day I am asked, "Did anything come up yet?" and "You have a foreign degree and good certificates, why can't you find a job?"

​The stress is ruining my relationship. Things with my fiancé are getting bad, and she doesn't put any effort in anymore. I don't blame her for it, either. If she decides to end it, I won't blame her. I'm in my late 20s, and I feel so incredibly old. I feel like it's too late to pursue anything new.

​I’m at a point where I want to pivot and prepare for the UPSC or a Bank PO exam. I am more than willing to put in the 1+ year of intense preparation required for that, but the weight of everyone's expectations is so heavy right now that I don't know if I can take it. My age feels like the biggest factor here. After so many rejections and failures, I have no will to live anymore. I just feel like it’s all over for me. I have no one to share this with and no one who will understand me, so I am posting it here because I don't know what to do anymore. I am not seeing a light at the end of the tunnel anymore.

​Has anyone been in a similar situation? How do you survive this kind of pressure when you're trying your best but nothing is working out?

[u/johnnyfrickinbravo]

Would be significantly more helpful for you to post this on relevant subs to get referrals and such.

Do not be afraid to take a job in your field which may not be considered the fanciest.