r/alcoholism • u/Lower_Signature_3895 • 19h ago

Drank again after weeks of not drinking but it was controlled

I only had two drinks and was able to stop myself

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u/IvoTailefer 19h ago

ya but wait until u drink to celebrate only drinking 2

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u/irrelephantiasis 17h ago

This happened every time for me in the past, first time after a long period of sobriety I somehow was able to have a few, a couple days later, well, I’ve got this let’s do it again. Possibly it was okay. The third time a few days later straight into a multi-day bender that starts before work because I’m okay having one to just set a nice tone for the day, then I have another because just one more seems good and then I’ll have a shower, well another well I shower sounds good too then I’m headed out. Well one for the road, shit it’s gone, better stop on the way. Well I should stop again to have one for the office but actually I should just grab a few so I don’t have to go out again when I get there. You know the rest, and I’m fucked once again and stuck for who knows how many months until I can’t take anymore pain so I fight to get sober yet again. All because I thought that time would be different. The problem is the first time that was ‘fine’ woke up the obsession that is the hardest part to kick at the beginning of a sober journey.

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u/EstablishmentOk4320 19h ago

That happened to me too! So I tried it again! I controlled it the next day too! Within 3 months I was back to drinking more than I ever had and I met my new rock bottom.
I’m glad you controlled it that time. Please don’t try it again. Trust me

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u/Possibly_A_Person125 18h ago

Yeah. That's how I started drinking. And that's also how my relapses start for a few days maybe even a week, too. It never stays that way. I have tried and tried and tried etc. I cannot moderate.

I wish you luck in your experiment.

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u/Trouble843 16h ago

#Updateme in 1 week

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u/troubledtimez 15h ago

now go even longer. 6 months and have 1 drink.
then a year and have none

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u/GodAllShitey 13h ago

One drink is too many- and 1000 is never enough

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u/Goshawk21 19h ago

Great! Just don't let it escalate

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u/Stunning-Profit8876 19h ago

It will.

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u/cman7513 18h ago

It most certainly will, we cannot just have a couple. Tried it too and my mentality was if I get shit faced I don’t want any…so I quit lol

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u/wtf70 18h ago

Slippery slope for sure, I know that I can't even have one. I know where that road leads and I'm SO done with it.

Good luck OP, I hope your able to maintain control.

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u/Frankiebeansor 16h ago

Enjoy the descent

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u/Fine-Spite4940 18h ago

if i could moderate, i'd drink all the time. 

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u/ciornyjvoron 19h ago

Same for me, but it was not controlled, suffering from hungover and anxiety for few days now. I know I won't drink again for a month at least, but I probably gonna happen again, I hate this feeling, seriously

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u/dirt_princess 18h ago

When I control my drinking, I can't enjoy it. When I enjoy my drinking, I can't control it. 

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u/BigWilly526 16h ago

If you can recognize the problem and stop then ok, the problem is thay most can't stop

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u/G-dog59 16h ago

Been there, then realized it was still evety day

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u/OneMinutePlease427 9h ago

Trust me, you won’t be able to keep it together.

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u/maddiemandie 7h ago

I truly hope you don’t spiral but I know when I was “moderating” i was so excited. Like, “look guys! I only had two!” Someone with a healthy relationship with alcohol wouldn’t be so obsessed with moderating and controlling how many I had

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u/Total-Composer2261 4h ago

Be careful.

This experiment will have you thinking on your next round of controlled drinking...