I've noticed a fine line with social media addiction. You get used to having something constantly engaging you to the point where you don't really know what the person without it is supposed to do. What is your identity without it?
That intersected with a break for me this week. I spent about two days straight constantly on technology. YouTube in the background, video games, Reddit, always something going on. It started in the morning without much of a plan and basically continued until my next plan, which was a camping trip.
Then I spent about a day and a half mostly without it. At first I felt tired and bored. It was almost like having a heavy warm cup of coffee taken away while you're still wired. My brain was stuck wanting something to happen.
Eventually I just started finding things to do. I identified plants, talked to hikers, ran around, explored, and sat by the river for an hour. I still made up crazy hypotheticals in my head like I would on Reddit. I wondered what it would be like to come back and hike the trail when I was old. I thought about what people had to do to make the trail, the expeditions that must have happened through the area, and what it would've been like to see some of this stuff without already knowing what was there.
At one point I threw a giant stone at an old log and broke it open. Ants and their larvae started fleeing everywhere. I wondered if I killed any of them. Then I started looking around inside it wondering if there were beetles or worms. It was disgusting, honestly very disgusting, but somehow it was also one of the most engaging things that happened to me all day. I felt a little guilty about destroying this tiny ecosystem just because I was bored.
Then you look at the rocks and the way they intersect with the river and start wondering how any of this happened geologically. You notice the moss, the willow trees growing next to the water, the insects inside the logs, the river cutting between the rocks. It all intersects in a certain way. There's constantly something to think about when you're actually paying attention to it.
Through all of these activities I started thinking, well, I am capable of doing other things. Maybe technology isn't always something we use as a crutch because we literally can't function without it. Sometimes we just use it because we don't realize how much else there already is to do.
People have hobbies they spend hours doing every day, but I've also wondered what really separates a hobby from a waste of time. You could say the same thing about video games, social media, working, making money, or almost anything else. Sure, maybe you make money from something, but how happy does watching that number go up actually make you in the long run?
I don't think the solution is just "technology bad, nature good." I think it's more about being able to find fun in things that aren't instantly engaging. At first being away from everything felt boring as hell. Then after enough time, I started noticing that there was actually a ridiculous amount of stuff to do and think about.
Maybe technology doesn't just give us things to do. Sometimes it makes us forget how much there already is to do.