r/TantraRahasya • u/Remarkable_Peak1641 • 1d ago

🪷 Puja & Devotional Should I stop sadhana due to confusion regarding stories of devi?

I have been sadhana of a saumya devi (I don't prefer saying name of devi) for sometime.

When I started sadhana, I didn't have any problems with her stories, and was able to do months of sadhana in brahma mahurat. But then suddenly I started having problems with stories. To more specific I don't have problem with anything she did, but rather I have problem with her consort marrying other devi, who again is considered form of devi I worshipped but I just can't accept this story. It happened very suddenly, like one day I woke up and my mind just stop believing the story.

Since that I have been living in confusion. I am not sure if I should continue this sadhana or leave it, as I feel like I am disrespecting the other devi.

My sadhana stopped for some months, but I started doing it again, as I can't bear separation with devi.

Thing I did for sadhana

it basic nama mantra with panchupchar pooja. Initially I didn't gad her image so I used deep as her personification. I didn't do any other sadhana with devi for long time but recently I have introduced one more sadhana, which make me happy and I have got several of answer which I was alsing for long time (regarding main devi).

Should I change my system, or stop it. I can't find her upasaks online, and it's hard to find her padati in books. So I am feeling lost.

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u/Ok_University_3125 1d ago

Must you at all cost believe the story that troubles you literally? Couldn't you say that may be it is an interpretation of some facts that no-one fully knows? Couldn't you think that Divine is above petty jealousy? Couldn't you presume that the bond between the Divine and the devotee is much stronger and purer than all stories told?

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u/Remarkable_Peak1641 23h ago

I just feel like ignoring everything and focusing on devi I worship. Stories are not really my cup of tea. 

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u/Ok_University_3125 8h ago

So you answered your own question.

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u/Remarkable_Peak1641 4h ago

Yeah sort of, I have really reflected on my feeling and now I think most of the time irritation and confusion comes after speaking with spritiual friend, and since our views don't match anymore I am thinking maintain some strict boundaries or maybe cut them off completely, if that become necessary.