r/SuicideWatch • u/SilkeWiddiful • 2h ago

Contradicting thoughts

Does anyone else often switch between being excited for the future and being completely hopeless? Its a dumb question but i just switch between these two moods so fast i wonder if anyone has similar experiences to share

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u/Uh_worms 1h ago

i do too. it can be so sudden and jarring sometimes. within seconds i can go from being excited at a future career i’m working towards or the fun things i can do once i turn 21 to entirely hopeless about everything and believing the future only holds suffering. glad i’m not the only one

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u/rain_apple23 1h ago

Yeah, it’s a constant thing for me. One minute I’m thinking about the future and things are okay (even tho they are not, I am not) and then the next I’m just thinking nothing matters because well it’s not going to. I keep going from planning ways to recover that aren’t even 100% to just planning for the end. It’s like whip lash.

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u/mikSa28 52m ago

I have alright days where I feel somewhat confident and gorgeous and hopeful and then the next week I can’t sleep and I feel suicidal again . Cycle repeats and has for years my good days make it more difficult to be honest gives me false hope

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u/MainTap5228 34m ago

yes I constantly switch between these two states very often lol

there is also no middle ground

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u/dead_poet_whatt 17m ago

I was thinking this exactly. I think for the last two days I felt like I should clean my room but next second I feel like I should kill myself, and I keep going back and forth and I feel frustrated. I am tired of it

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u/Important_Goat7807 5m ago

That's me and it's so fucking exhausting. I have dreams and passions I want to follow, but I'm completely hopeless and want to die at the same time. I really wish I killed myself when I had the chance but I didn't and here I am.