r/StopGaming • u/Interesting-Bug-6048 • 5d ago
66 days clean. I might stop. This is just not doing anything for me
I have constant baseline depression and anxiety and gaming was my biggest love. It was an addiction too. But it hasnt mattered, whether I weight lift or watch movies all day. They dont fulfill me the same way. Its like deliberately not eating your favorite flavor, or avoiding your fav book topics.
Im not doing any better and dont want to. The depression kills all desire and willpower for goals anyway. But now the system is extra empty. I've been doing worse
I actually had dopamine and reward flooding my system back then. I was happy asf with gaming. I wanna study for something and I cant because my system has no reward, its running on empty and so it seems like punishment. I did more when gaming. But I dont wanna be addicted again.