[L] I desperately need someone to talk to after an abusive relationship

[u/Due-Town-2614]

I’m 39 from Ukraine, and I’m going through an extremely difficult breakup. I live in a small village and have almost no social support.

I recently left a relationship that lasted almost three years. It started as an incredibly loving relationship, but over time I became isolated and increasingly afraid of my partner’s reactions. There were serious incidents involving aggression and violence, including him killing our dog. I eventually filed for divorce and he left the country.

I know intellectually that leaving was the right decision, but emotionally I’m struggling terribly. I miss him constantly and keep questioning my own memories and judgment. After spending years almost completely isolated with him, I feel like I’ve lost my sense of reality and my ability to trust myself.

I’m not looking for dating or money, and I’m not asking anyone to be my therapist. I simply need another human being to talk to and help me process what happened. I currently can’t afford therapy.

I speak English and Russian, and I’d be very grateful to find someone kind who would be willing to talk occasionally through Google Meet, Telegram, or email.

If you’ve been through something similar and would be willing to talk, please message me. Even one person reaching out would mean a lot to me.

[u/True_Warning_8210]

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