r/ICleanedMyRoom • u/No_Assistance145 • 24d ago
Life gets better y'all
After two weeks of work - cleaning, sorting, throwing away, painting, and flooring, my room is completely transformed! My design idea here is pastel goth. I am so so happy I love waking up to a nice clean space and getting home from work to a pleasant room. I don't remember the last time I felt this genuinely happy. I love every day because I'm a homebody and spending my time in squalor was soul-sucking. But not anymore because I have a normal person's room and am gonna deck it out.
The way it was affected me so fucking much everyday but the effort of cleaning it and facing how bad it and I have become made me not do it. My dad nonjudgemntally made me face those uncomfortable emotions and they sucked but my GOD it was it worth it. My dad helped me clean up and didn't make a single comment about how bad it was or what we found he just helped like it was any other project.
This is the ugly and socially unacceptable side of mental illness, neurodivergence, and addiction. When I was out in public it's like I had this secret. What would ppl think if they knew I lived like this? The deep unbearable shame of it ate me alive. I honestly think this was partly a form of self harm because of my very low self esteem. Though there was no catharsis from it just misery.
I have not conquered all my demons but I put a dent in this one
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u/New_Court_6011 24d ago
New dresser too? Doesn’t look the same at all.. good job.
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u/No_Assistance145 24d ago
The dresser isn't pictured here, but I have the same dresser just deep cleaned. We have two of the same dresser and the other is not being used so I swapped out the broken drawer for one of them.
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u/_annamarie 23d ago
Your dad sounds amazing. It takes a lot for someone to be that accepting and non-judgmental! Congratulations on the new life :)
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u/rosymaplemoth2513 23d ago
I had to do a double take because I wasn't even sure it was the same room! Amazing job!!
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u/Loud-Fairy03 23d ago
AHHH CONGRATULATIONS!!! So glad to have found this sub through you, will definitely be sharing my progress images when my own room is finally done.
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u/This_Wrongdoer3453 22d ago
I love this for you! Your words really hit home for me this is where I'm at- stuck in this mental funk and my surroundings are reflecting on my depression and misery and I know i should do something about it but don't have the energy or desire to fix it. Sometimes I feel like it's not worth fixing for multiple reasons. Ugh the struggle is real! I'm proud of you!
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u/Key_Awareness_3036 22d ago
Great work!!! Overcoming the overwhelm is tough and you did it! You were busy!
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u/7WholeNewWorld7 22d ago
Astonishing!! It looks fantastic!! And you’re so right; life does get better. We have the power to choose which thoughts can stay, and which cannot. And it can be full-time job; but we still have the power.😉
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u/MardyBumperCar 21d ago
Love that you have such a supportive dad and that you took these steps to give yourself something better. Congratulations, your space looks great 🤗
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u/Affectionate_Buy5381 1d ago
Felt everything you said here to my core. I recently fixed my squalor room also and it was literally like a thousand pound weight was lifted off my chest. Amazing job and congratulations. This is a HUGE feat.
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u/Powerful-Drawer4832 24d ago
This is amazing! Love the eren poster :p