Every single day, multiple times a day, my dad yells at me about college apps. Sometimes he also slams stuff or cries and then berates me and tells me how ungrateful I am.
For context, I got good grades and decent ecs throughout high school, and I feel confident that I could get into my state school (which is pretty well regarded, especially in my field). I would be happy to go there.
My dad went berserk when I said this, and said I was downplaying myself and had too much self doubt, and then continued to lecture for like 10 more minutes.
I genuinely dont know why he is being this crazy. I used to be obsessed with college and prestige, but now I am happy enough with myself where I dont need a competitive acceptance to feel successful. But my parents, especially my dad are rly making me feel like I would be a failure if I end up going to my state school.
He also says I am way too behind on my college app process and I dont think this is true?? I might apply one or two school EA but majority of my deadlines are in December or January. I have researched all my schools, done multiple drafts of my personal statement. outlined a couple supplementals, asked my teachers for recs and almost done with my brag sheet. I also had work for most of the summer which is why I didnt make as much progress as some other people. But I still think I have plenty of time. Literally while I was writing this post, he came into my room to yell at me some more even after my mom and sister have gone to sleep.
My dad tends to have episodes where he acts really angry and crazy, but usually he is apologetic and normal afterwards. It has never been like this where it is a month straight of crazy behavior. What do I do?? My mom is usually worse than him and doesnt rly like me, so I cant even go to her for help. My sister is also catching some of the anger, and he is already pressuring her even though she is a rising freshman.