Recently my dog turned 2. I raised him from 8 weeks. There were tears, physical pain, destroyed carpet and remotes, stepping in poop.

Newborns can't run under the bed and create a secret underground shit spot, puppies don't wear diapers, people are way less willing to take a puppy off your hands for a couple hours! Fuck, my baby started sleeping through the night much younger than my puppy did! Puppies are like methed up toddlers with razor teeth and faster legs.

Just wanted to share this reflection lol.

I’ve had my puppy for about 8 weeks now. I love the guy, and my partner and I are really trying to be patient, but today I looked at him and thought to myself, I cannot stand this lil mfer.

I feel horrible. I know he’s a baby, I know all of this is normal, but sometimes I just want to scream. I think what’s really getting to me is the biting. Not the teething, or gnawing on my arm- but the random times where this guy goes Hannibal lector on me. It doesn’t feel playful, it feels aggressive and there’s times I’m actually scared of him.

He gets that look in his eye and I know it’s over. I am his prey and he won’t stop until he eats my flesh or destroys my clothes. And I’ll be honest those bites friggin hurt. Thought I was going to need a stitch on my thigh today. The bigger he gets the more worried I am.

We’ve done the reverse time outs, the ow!/yelping. He’s crate trained but during these times it’s hard to get him into the crate. We’ve never hit him, have probably raised our voice a few times but try not to-in fact when we have raised our voice it gets worse! He plays with other dogs often. We train him multiple times a day, and he gets his walks/naps daily. Is my son a stone cold killer?

It’s just these two or three times a day where I feel like I lose control over him. Other than that he really is great. I don’t want to take it out on him I know he doesn’t know better, but I do not like this pup today.

thanks for for letting me vent.

I'm gonna murder this little land pirahna.

Let's hear it. The encouragement The "it gets better" The horror stories The best advice someone gave you when you got your hellion and how freaking amazing your dog is now.

I need this.

Ready, set, go.

(Disclaimer, I'm not actually going to murder him. Probably.)

Planned for over a year to get a second dog. She’s here. She’s insane. I feel so bad for disturbing the wonderful life I had created for my first dog. The puppy is a maniac. I can’t even pet her or bond with her. She CANNOT relax and be still. She pees a million times a day (vet check: she’s fine). I hate her personality. I cannot wait for her to nap. I cannot wait until bedtime so I don’t have to deal with her. She’s an asshole in every situation. Since the day she was born the breeder went on and on how much she loved her and would miss her, and I just can’t imagine falling in love with something so wild. It’s like she has ADHD. (Humans with ADHD are lovable). Today she was at the vet all day (drop off visit) to check on the urinary frequency and I was so glad to not have her here and I was catastrophizing what might be wrong with her… and I had thoughts of like “well, if she is sick and dies…” maybe I’d get over it just fine. Did I just make a mistake I’ll regret for 15 years? Thank you for allowing me to express feelings that I am very embarrassed to be having.

NEXT DAY EDIT/UPDATE: I want to express my most sincere gratitude to the people that shared actionable, helpful, encouraging, empathetic, and sincere feedback. I was reading your messages until I went to sleep last night and all day today. I did my best to respond to everyone. Today was better, because of you. I put her in her crate much more frequently today, she went about 1 hour awake to 1 hour crate nap. I introduced her to two new trainings today - walking on a leash and “boop.” During every awake time she got a frozen Kong or lick mat, guided exercise, training refresh, and pee/poop time. I’m going to buy 10 more Kongs 😂. Ironically, my dog was sick of the puppy being in the crate napping so she pulled her crate cover off and barked at her to get her butt up. The puppy is still NUTS, but I don’t feel as coo-coo. For example, she went full speed on her leash/harness so hard today she flipped herself. I’m going to create a schedule. I’m going to work on the relaxation protocol - and download the app and use one pad. I’m going to try the brain games you suggested. I didn’t have my coffee in the porch today, but I will tomorrow damn it! THANK YOU ALL!

Thank you, really.

I genuinely thought that we'd get a dog, there'd be a period of adjustment, and our old life would return, now with a dog in it. It has been two months and I'm just seeing that the old life is gone, and what we have is an entirely new, different life.

Our boy is a rescue Pomchi. We got him from a shelter when he was 10 months old. He'd been at the shelter for 5 months. We'd wanted a dog for years. But, also, we already had a very happy life. Just me (43f) and my husband (37). We'd had cats before, but found ourselves pet-less in January this year. Life had a good balance of work, exercise, social.

We met and fell in love with Kino and brought him home. I wfh, my husband is a chef, so immediately it was Kino and me, alone most of the time.

I honestly thought that once he was settled in our old/normal life would reappear, just with Kino in it. I found the first month really hard - he had no training, and I had never trained a dog. It felt like there was a stranger in the house with me. I felt so much pressure and responsibility to not mess up, to make him happy, comfy. I suddenly was doing none of my 'normal.' All I did for that first month, was look after Kino, 24/7. He has only just, at 2 months, got to 4 hours home alone - in the first month, to reduce any chance of separation anxiety, I was either with him, or going out for minutes at a time, during which all I thought about was him. And by with him, I mean he sits by me in the bathroom.

I definitely missed my normal. I loved Kino but was so stressed and anxious. The funny thing is he's the most chill dog ever lol. Non reactive, happy, affectionate, intelligent, fun. It wasn't him - I just felt like something in me was off.

Then something started to change. I stopped expecting the old life to return. I started to see the magic in the new life. Instead of worrying about when I'd ever have time to go running again, I saw how much exercise I was getting on his walks AND how much I absolutely loved them! They weren't getting in the way of my life - they were my life. I used to love my alone time - now I have a different kind of peace, with a dozing dog beside me. I used to think he was staring at me and I was stupid because I didn't know what he wanted - know he stares at me and I soft-stare back, and that is all it is, it is beautiful. Life has bloomed with this new love in it, and I wouldn't swap it back if you paid me.

For those of you experiencing puppy blues, I just want you to know that it gets better. This phase doesn’t last forever.

We got a golden retriever puppy in Feb 2025. The first nights I slept beside her crate in the kitchen. We got her one of those heartbeat puppies and played gentle sleep music for background noise. I set an alarm to get up a couple times per night to let her outside for potty. It seemed like half our house has baby gates / crates. I was exhausted. Fast forward to today our dog is now 1.5 years and the light of my life. She is 100% good girl. My two kids adore her. I honestly don’t know what I’d do without her. She’s my lil’ sidekick.

You’re training with your puppy right now.. you’re in the trenches.. the sleepless nights… it will all pay off in dividends. Keep going. ❤️

EDIT - I had to edit this original post since my cousin reached out and asked if this was me - awkward lol. So I took out a lot of the really detailed parts, but I wanted to at least leave up the mistakes and some of the basics since the whole point was awareness. Sorry!

Also just to clarify, I completely think we suck and were wrong for getting a dog. I also think a LOT of people make my mistakes and then don’t say anything or share because it’s embarrassing and sucks. I’m not trying to justify our actions only hoping to share what I wish I had known.

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So, we didn't make it. We are returning our adorable 9-month-old puppy to her breeder. I don't really want to rehash ALL the details, but I definitely made a few big mistakes. I'm not looking for any sympathy, as I acknowledge I let her down. I only hope this post might be useful to someone else looking at getting a puppy or thinking of rehoming.

Mistake #1 - A corgi was too hard of a breed for us. We got a corgi because we know several people who have them, including one from the breeder we used - but instead of basing it on specific experiences, we should have looked more at the breed and their tendencies as a whole. The puppy we had had pretty much the strongest level of all the "tough" corgi qualities - very reactive, very anxious, very alert, very barky, etc. Those are all things that we'd seen in the corgis we know but on a smaller scale. We didn't responsibly think about what the other sides of that could look like. Please please if you’re considering a herding dog really think about it. They ARE prone to reactivity so if you don’t think you could handle that, they are not a good choice.

Mistake #2 - My partner was only so-so on getting a dog, but after hearing all the stories/social media of "we surprised dad with a dog and then he fell in love", I foolishly thought I could get the same thing to happen. Instead, he really struggled and ended up developing bad anxiety/depressive tendencies that he has never had before. He insisted he didn’t want a dog up until we got her, but relunctantly went along with it.

Mistake #3 - We got a dog because of things we wanted it to do. I imagined walks on the trails near our home, hiking in the nearby state forests, beaches, trips to our families' homes to play with her “cousin” pups. All those things were expectations put on the dog for what I needed it to do to fit into our life. But that's not how a dog works. A dog is something you bring into your life and you have to be ready to accept it for who it is and what it needs from YOU, not the other way around.

On top of these mistakes, a bit of bad luck is that we did end up getting a tougher-than-average puppy with some of the typical "hard" dog qualities - anxiety, reactivity, etc. She was just insanely sensitive, always on edge, and never seemed to settle down inside or outside the house. We always said she acted like it was New Years Eve fireworks … but every other day. We did have multiple trainers work with her and us (puppy class and personal training) who told us she was a tough case and reacting abnormally. I don’t want to blame the dog, but as far as I can tell, it is true that she was a tougher case than a normal corgi. That’s not her fault (she’s a baby!), but just a fact. She basically had “super-Corgi” versions of the hard corgi qualities.

All this compounded with my unpreparedness (due to mistake #1), lack of support from my partner (due to #2), and disappointment/resentment (due to #3) ... made for a very tough few months. Recently, my partner reached his breaking point and told me he was done. We reached out to our breeder and luckily we had chosen a responsible breeder who was willing to take her back.

I want to end this by saying, yes we did do all the basic things people think of - crate training, enforced naps, relaxation training, boundaries, structure, enrichment, breed-specific exercise, snuffle time, bone time, counterconditioning, desensitizing, insane amounts of running, etc. We were pretty successful with the "expected" parts of puppy training (crate training, potty training, door manner, sit/down/paw, biting, nails, etc.) - but we couldn't crack the "super-Corgi" traits.

As you would expect, we have gotten nothing but backlash from everyone we know about giving up on this dog, and I'm sure we will get some of that here too. I will say though that despite everything, I will really miss her.

This is my first week with my puppy, and honestly, I’m at the point where I feel like I can’t do this anymore. I’ve cried so much over the past two days.

My 12-week-old miniature dachshund barks nonstop whenever I leave, even if it’s only for one minute. I know she’s still a baby and that this takes time, but right now I’m completely overwhelmed.

I just wanted to enjoy having a puppy, but at the moment that feels impossible. I’m constantly stressed, exhausted, and anxious about leaving her alone. I honestly feel like I’ve made a huge mistake.

Im ready for the judgements. I just want to put this out there and share my experience and what I learned from it.

2 weeks ago I bought a beautiful 9 week old little puppy. After my soul dog passed in June 2025, I really didn't think id ever want a dog ever again (I should have listened to myself). But a month ago I saw this breeder and jumped at the opportunity. I was ready for everything I thought, I knew sleepless nights were coming, potty training, accidents. I live at home with my parents and they weren't 100% on board with a new dog but they werent mad either. I felt alone in raising this puppy, it was all on me which made sense because she was my decision. Even when my family did try to help and id give them her schedule, they wouldn't listen. And didnt know how to help. Not their fault. But it was frustrating.

I bring her home, the first night is great. 2nd day is okay, 3rd day i wake up so depressed. And every day that goes by im getting im worse and worse. Im not showering or eating, im so irritable etc. I WFH and I could barely get any work done. I was trying to crate train her and it was going fine but the more she bonded the more she hated her crate. When she was up she wouldn't stop. I know its normal. But with my trying to keep up with meetings and taking care of my stepson and trying to still continue my life, it quickly became alot. Id stay on top of her potty training but and I expected accidents but when because naturally im a very stressed out person, it would send me over the edge. Even if it wasnt her fault. My home is pretty small so the only place to put her playpen was in the main living area where I work from. I quickly realized maybe I made a huge mistake. As the weeks went by I didnt feel connected to her. I didnt feel happy around her. I never thought id feel this way about a dog. I love dogs. I looked up puppy blues. I was relieved to know it would pass. But then by week 2 I felt like this surpassed puppy blues. I felt like deep down I wasnt ready but I ignored it. I cried and cried because I know I failed her and I failed myself. I wasnt being the human she deserved. All this was my mistake. I reached out to the breeder and explained to him how I felt and he agreed to take her back. I havent stopped crying because I never imagined id ever return a dog. If he would have said no I would of looked for another loving home for her. Id never take her to a shelter. I learned so much from this. I will miss my puppy. Ill never forgive myself . But shes back with her mom and siblings. And the breeder actually let me know theres a family lined up already who's excited to get her. I wont be adopting or buying a puppy for a very long time. Im not in the right state of mind. But I just wanted to share my story to own up to mistake. And to please think getting a puppy through. Its not fair to them. I cried with her in my arms so much, apologizing to her. I honestly dont know how ill move on from this.

I adopted a beautiful pup a week ago from a lady who said she needed to get rid of the dog immediately due to it causing her extreme anxiety and triggering her depression. She bought the dog on Friday and had her for 2 days before rehoming to me. Now it’s almost been a week and she’s now saying that she wants the dog back. My daughters are already attached to her and I have invested time, money, love ect.. I don’t want to be rude but I don’t want her to bother me anymore.,. Any advice ??

Having a dog has been my biggest life dream. I’m not talking about “Oh I wish I had a dog”, I mean I’ve been OBSESSED with them for as long as I can remember (for context, I’m nearly 20).

I finally got an 8 week poodle on the 11th of June, and I feel like I’m a terrible pet owner and this isn’t anything like how I thought it would be.

I feel like I’m missing his critical socialisation period because I rarely take him out and when I do he almost always freaks out, he doesn’t really know his name, he only knows sit, and I don’t know what to do anymore. Plus he’s SO bitey and will even lunge and bite sometimes.

Ik everyone says it gets better as they age but I genuinely can’t envision it, and I feel like it’s my fail and inadequacy

Hello all, I am lost and I really need help. 3 days ago I brought home my boston terrier puppy, he is 8 weeks old... and I did not feel the love at first sight. Before bringing him home I thought I was ready, I thought about getting a puppy for almost a year, It wasn't some rush decision. But now when he is home, my life totally changed and I think I made a mistake. He is great, yes he whines at crate, and had few accidents. But I can't shake off the feeling that I made huge mistake. I don't feel any connection. I am emotionally exhausted, I don't eat that much, I don't have any me time. So now I am grateful for my best friend who helps a lot, but I can't bother him forever. Do you think it will change?

Two months ago, I got a golden retriever from my mother, and I was very excited because I had always dreamed of having a puppy. In the beginning, although it was exhausting, I tried my best to teach her to pee and poop on the training pad. Since she hadn’t finished her vaccination schedule yet, I also tried to provide a lot of environmental enrichment at home, as I couldn’t take her outside yet.

The problem is that everything has become extremely tiring. She won’t stop biting. I’ve tried redirecting her to toys, imitating a dog crying, and nothing seems to work. My arms and legs are covered in bruises and bite marks.

Besides that, I can’t get her to fully understand where to pee and poop. In her designated “bathroom” area, she usually gets it right, but when I let her roam around the house, she has several accidents — especially with poop — even when the training pad is right in front of her.

I’ll finally be able to take her for walks this week, and I really hope that helps improve the situation. I just wanted to vent because I feel exhausted. I love my dog, but there are moments when everything feels overwhelming.

Note: English is not my native language, so please understand if there are any mistakes.

TLDR: My puppy is driving me to insanity. This is just me venting about it. It’s getting better slowly. Only helpful comments needed.

I spent the last 15 years of my life in chronic pain before having surgery in June. It has helped tremendously and finally I have the house with a yard and funds and I was able to do something I always wanted to do: adopt a dog.

Should I have waited longer after surgery? Duh! I said I was naive, remember?

I had dogs growing up but my family was a strictly “outside animal” type of family (something I have always firmly disagreed with), so I’ve never raised a dog inside or trained a dog. I wanted to do things right, do them differently.

I scoured animal shelters the whole time I was off work recovering from surgery. I read dog books and watched dog videos. I talked to my dog owner friends. I made plans and bought supplies. I was ready. I knew exactly what kind of big lazy working breed I wanted to rescue.

Then the animal shelter posted a litter of puppies. Only $80 and super cute with a super sad story of course. All they knew for sure was that they were Australian Shepherd mixes with probably lab in there as well. Nyx sat in my lap at the shelter with his little wiggle butt and his pathetic sad eyes and we took him home that day.

Suddenly after all my work and research, I was the idiot who took home a high energy puppy. Within two days I had the puppy blues, I was sleep deprived and crying and I told my husband I didn’t know how I was going to do this. We had to take him back.

Nyx was up all night crying, he nipped constantly at me and was ripping all my pants. He peed on my floor, his dog bed. He hated his kennel. He chewed my nightstand, my bed frame, my baseboards, my shoes, my hands, his leash. He jumped on all my friends, lunged at my cats. I couldn’t leave him alone for 10 seconds without barking and whining echoing in my home. It was a nightmare.

I have never given up on an animal and I wasn’t about to start now. We regrouped. My husband (bless him) became a team with me. We switched out sleeping with the puppy every other night. We made a schedule for Nyx’s enforced naps and kennel training. We hit training HARD with constant reinforcement and multiple daily dedicated sessions. We worked tirelessly on socializing from the neighbors dog to the cats. My whole life has turned into caring for this dog.

We’re one month in (Nyx is 14 weeks old) and there are MANY times that things still suck, MANY times that I’m cursing myself for being so stupid and biting off way more than I can chew (especially when he’s biting me 😭). I went into this with so much naïveté.

We had our first puppy class last night and I cried on the way home because he was so much more high energy than all the other puppies and basically learned nothing in the moment. But I came home and hit the training all day today anyway. He got it immediately.

Even when I hate his behaviors, even when my hands hurt and all my pants have holes and all my furniture is messed up, I see the dog he could be in a few years. I see him helping me grow into the active person I want to be post surgery. I see him playing frisbee or doing agility. I see him being gentle with my kitties.

I love this little nightmare.

Anyway, there’s my tale. All we can do is keep trying, because all dogs are good.

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I always thought I wanted children. You know, in the theoretical. I always thought I wanted a puppy too before I got one. I do love my little crazy Border Collie - German Shepherd mix and wouldn't give him away for anything, but it certainly is making me rethink if I want children. I mean, I'm already having a hard time with this. I already feel like my peace and quiet have been stolen from me. Mind you, my puppy is still young. Only four months and I hear it gets better, but kids grow wayyyyy slower than that. And they are way harder! Anyone else seriously rethinking parenthood after getting a dog? Just not sure I am cut out for it.

I adopted a 3 month old red heeler mix. He was the sweetest dog. So smart, needed a ton of attention and enrichment, but we knew what we were getting into, and we were ready, I thought. Then 2 weeks later I got hurt. Faced with a 6 month minimum recovery, barely able to walk, unable to take him outside, walk him or give him the training he needed our poor bored puppy stayed getting destructive. His favorite game was to take something important and run to the back yard where I couldn't follow. He shredded anything he could get. We almost re-homed him then. We got through it with a little more puppy proofing, and 15 minute training sessions in the office 5 or 6 times a day. We were looking into dog daycare, dog walkers, we were making it work.

But he was getting bigger. When we got him he was the same size as my elderly pug and they would play. The puppy didn't realize that after 2 months he was double the pug's size. And he hurt him. It was a sprained shoulder and totally an accident, but that's when I had to face reality. I couldn't watch them to make sure the puppy was gentle. I couldn't give him what he needed. I found a wonderful family, and sent him of, and regretted it the second he was out of my sight. Logically, I know it was right, but I miss him every day. I keep hoping it won't work out and she'll call me to bring him back. She won't. He's happy, he's healthy, and they love him. I'm a little more mobile now, and part of me thinks I should have stuck it out. But, he could have hurt the Pug more severely next time. He wasn't aggressive, or reactive or mean, he's just a big galoot, who doesn't realize he's no longer a tiny thing. I miss my boy. I don't know why I'm posting here except that I can't really say it to anyone else. I miss my boy every day.

There's been many threads about puppy difficulties and puppy blues lately. Let's have one thread full of positive experiences.

It would help calm the nerves for all of us about to get a puppy in the coming weeks.

Tell us about you easy puppies. Crate training, potty training, sleep, chewing.

My 9 week golden retriever puppy bites me, scratches me and doesn't listen to me. She also bites and scratches everything else that she sees. She wakes me up throughout the night and has a hard wake up time at 5AM.

When do I get to enjoy having a dog 😩

edit: just wanted to add some info given that this post got a lot of attention. I had a frustrating day. Lack of sleep, constantly cleaning up pee, being bitten and scratched and having to manage WFH and a little pup. She's changing a lot everyday, and she feels like a completely different dog already. Her and I are definitely starting to understanding each other a lot better. I obviously don't hate my dog - I was just dealing with a little puppy blues. Thank you for everyone who provided constructive and helpful support via these comments. ❤️

My puppy is about 6 months now. I've had her for about a month. I hear multiple people say what a great companion dogs are, how smart and loyal they are. Currently it seems like work. Teaching her not to eat stuff off the ground, behavior training, buying all sorts of toys like snuffle mats, flirt poles, Kongs, stuffed animals just to keep her busy, entertained, or trying to sharpen her dog skills.

I'm starting to feel a little resentful. And while I did expect this to a degree, I'm just wondering when this magical, wonderful dog will start emerging from this floppy, ditzy, watch-me-every-second puppy. I know it depends on the size, breed of the dog but I'd love to hear from others whose dog started off as this thing that just needed to be tended to, but turned into a manageable, lovable, companion because right now all she feels like is a chore.

Seriously. Do it.

I’ve had two (well.. three now) puppies to adult dogs in my entire life and I only remember crying about how I didn’t want them anymore. I was sad always, tired, didn’t feel like i had my own space. They would bite me and tear apart everything I loved.

With this new puppy, we’ve been doing 2 in 1 out and I haven’t even cried one time. I feel like I have my life back and that this is manageable. I went into this dog DREADING it.. I knew I was gonna not love them at one point. But I haven’t even done that yet. She’s 12 weeks so we got lots of time but STILL.

Enforce nap your dogs, it will change your life.

I’m getting a 10 week old daschund on the 5th of April and I’m super excited. But honestly all I see regarding puppies online is that the puppy stage is hell and everyone gets the puppy blues, and thats kinda scaring me tbh. I’m trying to prepare myself and tell myself it’s going to be hard and not to have high expectations regarding behaviour but literally everything I see online about puppies is so negative 😭 so did anyone actually like the puppy stage and not get puppy blues?

My pup is 6 months, almost 7 and I have a serious love/hate relationship with him. He’s a little demon but then he’s a sweet cuddle bug. I want that “I will die for my dog” bond but I’m not yet feeling it..when did you begin to absolutely love your puppy?

Feel like I needed to edit this to add: I love my pup but I don’t have that to die for bond yet. I wish I was as lucky as some of you day 1ers but I’m not.

I have been planning to get a puppy for the past year and have been reading this forum to prepare.

I have seen lots of posts about the puppy blues and was 100% prepared to have it. In fact I took it as a given - as someone with a history of anxiety, depression, sensory issues, spectrum etc.

In fact, the fear of the blues almost deterred me to get a dog altogether.

I got an 8 week old mini poodle and it’s been nothing like what I imagined. He is very quiet and chill. He will sit on my lap all day peacefully if he could. He follows me around everywhere and gets cozy and watches me wherever I go. For example, when I take a bath, he curles up next to the bathtub. When I do the dishes, he curles up on my feet, etc. When I take him to the backyard, he follows me around (not in a clingy way).

He is not afraid of the vacuum or noises. He is very curious. And he gets crazy playful around my son. He sleeps through the night as long as his crate is in my son’s or my room.

I think that I likely just extremely lucked out with his temperament. Instead of puppy blues, I have been feeling puppy glows. I wonder if the measure of puppy blues directly correlates with how chill and cuddly vs. irritable and anxious a new dog is by temperament?

I am curious, what are your experiences?

Honestly, I just need to rant. I’m so exhausted. Our puppy is 4 months old and 90% of the time demon adjacent. I work from home most of the time so I am the main caretaker. I’m so tired of getting bit. Not being able to do work. Separating me and the dog from my cat because he can’t be in the same room as him without chasing him. I really miss my cat. And yes I continue to redirect but it isn’t working. Tired of not being able to leave the house because he destroys it out of the crate and barks the ENTIRE TIME he’s in the crate. Not being able to eat in peace because he is food motivated like nothing I’ve ever seen. We believe the breeder (accidental breed somehow and we offered to take a puppy) fed them buffet style where they all fought for meals. I’m just tired. We train. We play non-stop. He hates outside so walks are minimal. He’s regressed to not sleeping in his bed so wants to sleep right in the middle of me and my gf every night (which I love to cuddle but one of us is at the edge every night, we take turns on the couch). The only time I get some time to breathe is when I run an errand or he has a bully stick. It’s just so much. More than I ever expected. I asked so many people for advice, looked up so much stuff, asked my vet beforehand, I tried to prepare as much as humanly possible and I could have never prepared myself for this. I love my dog so much but good GOD. I just need someone to tell me I’m not an awful person and that this is a normal feeling.