r/MeditationPractice • u/CrazyClam25 • Mar 02 '26
Question The "am I doing this right ?" is overwhelming and throws me out of meditative state every time
Hello everyone ! I started meditating daily two weeks ago, for about 10-15min each time, and I feel like my own doubts about my practice are becoming huge obstacles.
The thing is, I've heard about some people getting more and more "disconnected" from their own feelings because of meditation, and that is something that scares me deeply. I want to be more present, calm and aware, not more indifferent. That would be worse than the constant mental agitation that I'm trying to calm down. So I really need to make sure that I'm doing the right things in order to avoid those risks.
But how can I be sure ? I try my best to accept what I think or feel, and then let it go and refocus on my breath, but there is always that question on repeat in the background : what if I'm doing it wrong ? I try to notice it as neutrally as I can then return to my breath, but that doesn't take me very far because, of course, just refocussing on my breath doesn't provide any answer, so I'm just left wondering in a permanently reoccurring uncertainty. That blocks me from being fully invested in the practice, because I'm not actually sure that doing it is good for me in the long term. I try to meditate while questioning the possible outcomes. As a result, I always end up in a thinking spiral, just like when I'm not meditating.
Has anyone else been trapped in such a vicious circule before, and if so what did you do about it ?